Read It From Me

1-5-2011

2011-05-01T11:10:00.003+08:00

Waking up early in the morning,suppose to go KLCC at 12.15 shift work start at 1pm.I think i woke up like at 9 something.Sony Style KLCC is a nice place to work at,the other staff were all right,pretty enjoyable i must say,plus i dont need to walk 15min from KLCC to Pavilion like how i used to at 2009,those were really extremely tiring if you do it everyday.

I think it is a good time to go bath and get some lunch at PV7,been eating one meal per day for the past 3 weeks,well not entirely all maybe 5 days out of the 3 weeks i did have dinner.

Pretty good morning. Looks rainy a bit but lets hope it will be a nice day.

March

2011-02-27T18:24:00.002+08:00

March is coming soon real quick.Had a really good CNY which is like 4 weeks ago,it was a very good one,meeting back the same old friend but at hometown where u will run out of place to go really soon,but it was nice and great.

School is great too,some minor hiccups once in a while but its all good,not to mention the assignment that is damn hard to do,but its school work u have to do it cope it and pass it up.

Nothing much too say,i am just extremely bored,i need a space where i can blabber and talk to myself,i am sleepy and dizzy,not really to the point of needing to lie down and pass out,still all right.

There is so many thing that i want to say but it wont be good,just want to let some steam out,but this place is like only 10-30% of my real life.

I remember Yew Woen will have this Man Period once in a while where he will feel emo like shit and restless,holy fuck i think i am in the same situation.

Perhaps i had travel too much for the past few weeks,between North and Middle,when suddenly its time to settle down i just cant find a way to jump back straight into it immediately,suddenly i am not really in the zone of the routine of life here.But food is extremely good up North,and i dont need to travel so damn far to a place, and the vibe of North is good.If u feel like going into the city yeah its there when u need it,when suddenly u feel old skool nostalgic and vintage,its there around the corner too.And its clean.

My roomate woen zhai is gone,suddenly its so quiet,i realize i am so fucking lonely leaving alone,im used to having him as a room mate,laugh at stupid shit,or argue at stupid shit and all those kind of good shit.

My nose is wet,its too hot today,my system is fried.I am sneezing non stop,liquid kept running down my nose all day since morning.damn.There is a bottle of really nice Pak Poh cordial in the kitchen,drinking that thing will cool my system.I am a Pak Poh freak,i love those thing.

What the fuck what a weird day today is.....

天堂

2011-01-11T18:15:00.003+08:00

天气很好的一天，这几天感觉上都是，可是心情怎么样都比不上天气一样好，可惜。
无法无天的愚蠢带来很多的阴天，一切都无所谓，当着笨蛋的日子继续过，原来世界上还有这样的人活着。
自己的心情跟看法，只有心里的深处懂，还好有得说出来，累了，好累，但是我还可以期待明天的到来。
走投无路，真的是这样，向前跨步会错过，向后退的空间不是要退就会有路给我走，有得退的话也不多，很小很小步的退，微妙的路随时都会变得更窄，黑暗，看不见光芒。也说不定有一天会有个门开着让我进入。
敲敲天堂的那个门，提醒里面的主人外面还有人在等着门开。我的天堂，目前真的是进不了，门只开着一点，微微的发光，门会开还是会永远就这样关掉锁起来，选的余地不是我所拥有。渴望进入天堂。。。。回我的家。。。
时间的解药，服下了对我无效。
久未放晴的天空，依旧留着你的笑容，想念还再等待救援。
希望笨的一方会醒觉。

罕见

2011-01-04T20:21:00.002+08:00

不懂什么事，突然间就是很想用华语跟这里讲话，对自己谈天。心里觉得很捆很累好像有很多讲不完的东西，有很重很大座的山，心里现在那个感觉是这样，觉得呼吸有点困难，哎我也不懂要怎样形容，文字上的了解有限，从小华语就不是怎么好，到现在也是，会给朋友笑我会华语是因为了女人，会跟华语有关的东西也是为了女人，我反而觉得没有这样啦，我只是发现到它其中的奥妙。

用华语自己在这里讲话还蛮不习惯的，习惯了用英文打字的速度，可是华语就是多了英文没有的东西，那份亲切感，毕竟华文是我们的母语。

现在心里的那份感受也不懂的怎么样写出来，不是因为写不出，是因为干嘛要讲这么多让你读，如果你是真的认识我的就应该懂得我在说什么吧，不懂的话也不是我的问题。

觉得很辛苦很辛苦很累，不要担心啦，不会到想寻死，自己结束自己的生命也太愚蠢了。今天重点不说这个。

不懂我的朋友今天都去了哪里，个个都搞人间消失，想念他们，想找他们聊聊天，谈谈无聊冷笑话，感觉上尤稳跟立凡喜欢听，应该他们太给脸了。可是这一路来都很感谢我第十五楼的朋友，我的团友，我的好友，跟他们一起经历了很多，玩了很多，伤了很多，吵了很多，错了很多，钱也花了很多。现在很突然的，一年后大家就会各走各路了，说实话真的很不舍得，这些回忆太美好了，也够力大屌，目击者（其实是我多年来拍的照片）好像是坏了，全都是硬揲闯的祸。它让我损失了很多钱买不到的东西，彩色的回忆。。。。。。

人长的越老，看的东西多了，懂事了，很自然的问题也会越来越多，让自己烦得很。有时可能把事情看得太复杂，有时反而觉得太简单了也会大屌，我是过来人我很懂。

再过几天，其实也没有几天，明天再一天我就要回我的现实生活了，回不是什么回事，可是从中也必须面对很多问题，放不下的坏处就是这里。这几天真的是他妈的感情上的问题捆扰了我不少，真的是臭基巴痛。。。不舍得会带来很多的牵挂，带着遗憾活是多么的痛，继续前进是唯一的办法，新朋友阿杨认为上大道是唯一的出路，不懂再看怎么样，是你说上的。。。。我的出路也只有一条。。难道真的真的要这样，有时又觉得好像不用这样。可是如果有得回头就好。。。

有好多好多话好想说给你听，不懂从哪里说起，可能有些话是真的不用说这么多的，这样会更好，可是如果没说人家会不懂的嘛，我没有这样笨，你看好多东西必须挣扎。。。鸡巴。。。

不然这样，点一首歌给你听，第二次点给你

End of 2010

2010-12-30T17:55:00.004+08:00

I still remember vivivly where i was what i was doing how it felt like in 2009. I still remember,how can i forget,i mean i do forget some the things in life but i remember most of them,i am the type of person that remember everything,sometimes i find myself reminiscing to the memories that is so long ago,for all kind of stuff in my life,dont know,i am like this since i was a boy.I like to remember stuff,i like to write down date and take picture of things that i am experiencing,maybe i am the type of person that dont like to forget.But anyway,they are just stuff about me.

So far 2010 to me had beeen a really shit year,i dont know how to say but after leaving until today of 2010,it doesnt felt very nice.Maybe its was the time that i need to do some mistakes in order to gain something in return,do i gain?this is the quesiton i keep asking myself,yes i did.Its a pain in the ass how a human need to do some costly mistake to learn something,sometimes it is meant to be this way.A really basic level metaphor,u wont know how spicy a chilly is if u dont taste them.What i hate about the year 2010 is i kept losing things.And the mistake i do cost me to lose things that are so important in my life,it suck ass but no matter how,i still have to deal with it, it leaves a very bitter sensation in my mouth,a sour throbbing pain in my heart,all i could do is curse,gulp it down,digest then see how i can pick it all up again.Another phase in life where i learn to know myself better.

I have plan for 2011,not really a grand plan but i have my direction i know what i want to do and where i want to go,too bad the plans changed suddenly 12 days ago, it suck ass like fuck but changes have to be made,but still it does not deviate much from my original plan, i am not really sure why the plan doesnt change much,maybe i am still hoping,i do really hope that my plan will include the one vital piece of the puzzle that is recently been lost. Perhaps i planned too far on some things and they got shatter unexpectedly but it is never a harm to plan ahead,rather then losing around like a lost sheep.

For 2011,it is a year that i need to get out from my comfort zone,it is the year where i am officaly need to work a real job,until the day i die.My other brother is coming up i must get some $$ for myself and also to pay for him some pocket money,This is what i wish to do.All i want is $$ now,reality=$$,u cant do alot of thing without $$,they are the basic requirement to live.But,but....money is not all.Anyway i have set myself goals and target,time to work my way through it.

What a year 2010 have been,there is so many thing,so many situation and people that teach me alot about life.2010 is also the year i never thought i will lose her again.Was it heartbreaking??Was it painful??Was is unexpected?? All yes to the questions,i thought she is really that girl,bad timing???i dont know.There is this talk by this bunch of people how he treat guys back in the days,i am here to say it all false,i know her,it is a good enough basis for me to confidently say all false and unrelated,its amazing how people like to talk and spread bad stories when they are free.But anyway,time will tell everything,no matter what,i wish u all the best cecilia,i will still always be around,u know where and how to find me,all u need to do is reach out !!

Happy 2011 everyone,may the new year ahead is a good year,for people who is dying for a restart,for people who have hopes and dreams,time to work hard and reach the goal,hit the target,identify the targets the goals that work towards it.Lets fight for it.The end of the year was not very great for me at all,its bad its ugly,i had never thought i will end the year this way,frankly i am still in a state of shock, but thats how it is........pain and sorrow....

Happy New Year everyone,Happy 2011.Lets make it the best year of our life so far!!

Continuation

2010-10-29T22:28:00.003+08:00

Frankly i dont even know if that is a word, just felt like writing stuff.I am writing this in a lovely house at Penang,bus ride 5.30 tommorow.So i should reach around 10.30-11pm hopefully, and be ready for Sunday's class.Imperia is a good choice to me so far,not because cz i only have one days of class for the whole damn week, most important thing is it felt like i am studying what i need to study, not like the horse shit at TAR College, just study every damn thing, there's a pro and cons in everything, i know my.School have been great so far,at least the lecturer is 100% better from TAR College *(not all TAR College lecturer are bad,only a few that i will remember them as suck ass,there is quite a few that are good, like my Measurement 2 lecturer Mr.Yeow, man i will remember that guy for sure).I miss back in the days 2 or 3 years ago when life is so simple,it was me woen and eric all the time.3 of us did almost everything together.Carrefour once every 2 or 3 days, Time Square every weekend for 8 weeks in a row, and a lot of sneaker shopping, hanging out with my classmate,i still see them but everyone have their own commitment and responsibility now.But that is back in the day, good thing i have something memorable to remember on my college days, there were great.

2 more month and this year will come to an end.So far this year felt like shit, it is more to a extra deep self discovery experience, so far.I sense it aint going to be prettier either for 2011 ahead,but i am ready for it, bring it on.It will be a massive challenge for me next year,a lot of thing is on stake, but fuck it this is life, aint nothing easy.Figure out what u want, set a target and work towards it and you will be good. It is going to be a tough year ahead, hell the remaining ones are also.Good thing time to step up my game, time to feed myself.There is too many shit that need figuring out of.

Is it tough ? this struggle ? no not for me. I believe with struggling result will come, all u need is to work your way through it, there is always a way for anything, a method to solve the equation.I am not a giving up type of person.Why give up when u can try and work out an outcome?wtf

Thats it. All i have in mind brain right now is music.I am so into Steve Vai this days.And damn he is a 3 time Grammy Award winner,that is like the pinnacle top of musical achievement(for mainstream music stuff. If purist will argue, but come on man this is just a small blog,i can write whatever i want)

And my earphone died on me this week.Damn it all i did was left it in my bag,cant believe earphone will go bad this way.I was in total shock when the right side wont work while i was in a bus going to Penang, but a quick buy from LYN fix it,RM35 and it reach my hands the next day.I cant live without my iPod, i need to have music in my head when i am alone...ohhh nooo noo wait....i should say all the time.....i need them all the time...

in case you are wondering what the hell is this,
they are views that i will love to see everyday.....

deja vu

2010-06-07T12:43:00.004+08:00

deja vu, this is how i feel.I still remember how it was last year 2009 from Feb till May i am back at alor star for a 3 month hiatus.One year and 3 month later, i am back here again.At least i had graduated this time.One year,do i feel anything different from it a year ago? yes i do.Different mindset to do things to think about stuff.It doesnt feels good when u realize most of your friend is getting done with their studies coming out to working life.

2010 had been a bad year so far,its like a nightmare.I had been static for a long time like since October last year,not going places.This is not good.I cant wait come September to go back to college.Then finish everything what i had left asap with results.I messed up my diploma with only a CGPA of 2.428,not nice at all.So want to bail out right now straight go into working life, but in the long run,i think only a degree will be useful.

i still remember how it feels like last year,vividly. Plus the blog post i have here one year ago really make everything come back.I can still remember how it feels blogging after work w.I go through and read everything.There are a lot of post i miss badly about last year.But one can only reminisce so much on the past.....what matter is the future.

time to start work tomorrow, the same job i have last year,a draftsman, which means doing Autocad drawing of plan.The main draftsman put his design on a piece of paper then i will draw it up in autocad.More of an architect type of work but it will still be good for me,sharpen up my autocad skill.Confirm need use next time when i work. I am going to ask everyone to give me work to do at the office cz last year everyone was like paiseh to ask me to this or that, best method is to go ask and beg for work and hopefully get scold if i do mistake.Observe and learn from people,learn how to deal human relationship and learn how to talk.

i just want to go work now,staying at home suck major ass plus the free mind likes to wonder.Too bad there is no QS job for me no one is willing to take me, cz i cant work properly.I will be gone for a week from 22nd June then a few days missing from work on July.August can work full time until somewhere of September.

I felt like shit for the last few months, but i am so looking forward of the next 3 month ahead of me.Hope the good Book application in my iphone will bring me Peace or Strength in some way.

the weather is good today i might go ride my bicycle

Burning Of The Midnight Lamp

2010-04-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

The morning is dead
And the day is too
There's nothing left here to greet me
But the velvet moon
All my loneliness
I have felt today
It's a little more than enough
To make a man throw himself away
And i continue
To burn the midnight lamp
Alone

Now the smiling portrait of you
Is stll hangin' on my frowning wall
It really doesn't really doesn't bother me too much at all
It's just the, uh, ever falling dust
That makes it so hard for me to see
That forgotten ear-ring laying on the floor
Facing coldly toward the door
And i continue
To burn the midnight lamp
All alone

Burn
Lonely lonely, yeah
Lonely lonely lonely
Loneliness is such a, drag

So here i sit to face
That same old fire place
Gettin' ready for the same old explosion
Goin' through my mind
And soon enough time will tell
About the circus and the wishing well
And someone who will buy and sell for me
Someone who will toll my bell
And i continue to burn the same ol' lamp
Alone

Darlin' do you hear me callin' you
So lonely
Lonely!

.

2010-04-17T17:14:00.001+08:00

Hey! Mr. Tambourine Man,
play a song for me,
I'm not sleepy
and there is no place I'm going to.

Though I know that evenin's empire
has returned into sand,
Vanished from my hand,
Left me blindly here to stand
but still not sleeping.
My weariness amazes me,
I'm branded on my feet,
I have no one to meet
And the ancient empty street's
too dead for dreaming.

Runaway Train

2010-04-11T03:27:00.004+08:00

Call u up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a flight
You were there like a flood torch burnin
I was a key that could use a little turnin

So tired that i couldnt even sleep
So many secrets i couldnt keep
Promised myself i wouldnt weep
One more promise i couldnt keep

It seems no one can help me now
I am in too deep
Theres no way out
This time i had really let myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like i should be getting somewhere
Somehow Im neither here nor there

Can u help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did i get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

And everything seems cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow i just dont believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin at the train
Little outta touch, little insane
Just easier then dealin with the pain

Runaway train never comin back
Runaway train tearin up the track
Runaway train burnin in my veins
I runaway but it always seems the same

Star

2010-03-03T01:47:00.002+08:00

As a dude growing up, sometimes i am surprised that some of the dudes just never watch star wars, dont know why they hated it.Well to each of its own i think.star wars have been quite a big part of my life growing up, its amazing seeing all those fighter x-wing and TIE fighther shootin laser in space.who will forget the amazing Jedi, their lightsaber and their always so mysterious " The Force " , han solo and the millennium falcon and mighty chewbaca(go google wookie), the ever wise Yoda, and Darth Vader and R2D2 and...............and the sound of everything from the movie.I still remember watching star wars for the 1st time at my grandma's house at kayang.I remember one of my aunt is getting married and i stumbled upon The Return of The Jedi VHS cassette in a car.It blows my mind away as soon the movie started playing.I was 6 or maybe 8 at that time i think.

I had just watch the episode 2 the clone wars half and hour ago so i want to talk about star wars.i bought episode 1 2 3 at a bootleg dvd shop while i was eating at danau with yann.3 for 20 ok lah.Tommorow continue episode 3.I have a lot of star wars stories which i will mention here sometime later.If i am back here blogging again next time.

As from next week, i will live off playing guitar only.How great is that.i make RM60 a week i think......shit....i will be teaching some other college student.I really kantoi the theory part...good thing is i am going to learn a lot from this which wont be useful when i am graduating(who knows when,not me, not even the elusive invisible supreme people)...damn it i just want to resit graduate then come september life will goes on normally again.

miss out quite a lot of stuff telling stories of myself to myself while typing them so u people get to read it.

May the Force be with you people

Long Lost

2009-12-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

These days...i found it no longer necessary to tell stories in word here....it feels like talking to myself....blah blah blah blah blah blah.....ahhh fuck it....

work have been good....having a chick among us 3 dudes feels so very different....there is nothing to do with 3 dudes around....girls talk more u see...so it gets a bit interesting........with only 3 dudes there not much nothing to do...plus with all the hidden not obvious tension/hatred between supervisor and the other spec wearing-i had work here for 8 months-i know everything its ok for me to fucked up real bad when i work-u must do everything my way dont think up any fast efficient idea-i should get promoted but why i never did- guy.....dude check in to work an hour late today....but didnt sign in...instead wrote a letter saying he came in time but due to the shitload of customer he need to serve he forgot to log in........what a lie....i got disgusted by this....wtf u didnt ask the supervisor about it...he give u spaces to work around...but u acted like u were the right one wit all the authority in your palm......dont know if u did fax it to HQ or not......but if shit gone wrong and stuff.....lets just say i might squeal..........hahaha....work place politics.....sigh.....

and yes me and my mates join our college's battle of the bands...so far its been great i think....due to the good song selection(+ yann's throat and us) we sounded like we are 10x better then the other guys(really?).....man win or lose i hope we can try our best and see if we can win it.....no i am not being ridiculous.....if u want to do something why dont do it good.......win or no win i just want to go up and play and hopefully with no fuck ups.....maybe we will win.......but if didnt get anything put nevermind.....experience is the main thing here.....

but getting to play in front of people...that is already enough for me.....plus it only cost RM10(registration fee)......good price IMO.......haha.......

and i want to watch 2012.....seriously considering to watch it alone tomorrow.....2 hour 40 minutes ++ for only RM11....thats a good deal.....i have watch a lot of short crap movie with the same price.....at least i know this one aint going to be a lemon.....

ohhh on a quick note.....its bloody unlikely i will watch any movie tomorrow......

Update

2009-11-12T02:28:00.002+08:00

If any of yall when to Pavilion....go and find Lot 4.31.00
u might catch a glimpse of me there sitting at the cash register impolitely with my feet stepping on some rack...or sitting on a table where next to me is a bunch of shirt on display...or sometime on the floor at the cash register....or having a group gathering at the fitting room area with no one watching the store....or advise my co worker about porno......if u see me reading a file with full concentration...that means i am reading a magazine.....if i am on my break time and u cant find me anywhere....check the fitting room in the store....there will sure be one that is locked with me sleeping inside......but i had only like sleep once for the past one month.....most of the time i dont break or i went to food junction with yann....or i will be at times reading on some mags.....

i love my job...sigh......

ok seriously i do....countless amount of adult counts on me to get their formal wear.....which i will turn them down easily....sorry bang x dak saiz ko.....sorry sir....we had run out of your size.....sorry maam...we dont sell clothing for womens here.....sorry we dont have the shoes in stock.....sorry bang....never iron cotton memang tak dak on sale punye.....sorry bang...saiz paling besar kitorang ada ialah size 42 je.....sorry sir i am not sure whats size will it be in EURO, or i suggest u try it on just to be sure.....pak cik sorry lah x dak free gift punye pasal u x beli rm250 ke atas.......oohh ohh sorry sir....the anti theft device is still on your shirt, i will have it remove at once, sorry for the inconvenience.....ohhhh no lah sir, it says never iron cotton but the truth is u still need to iron them, they are very easy to be iron though.....ohhh yes sir, Pima Cotton is a premium type of cotton, so it is quite expensive......

or the magic plead of the day....

"aiya bagilah discount, i know u can do it punye, bagilah discount extraaaaaaaa"

the store room is so empty that it gets chilly in there....

the in store music is good though.....

so are my co workers.....

i am in between braun buffel and vivd....next door to paul furank,swatch, risis, pokok ketam dan evelyn, braun buffel....thats me....

i work at Dockers now.....seriously they have the best looking chino ever.....but only left size 32 and 33 for the super slim cutting......

Retard

2009-09-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

i just did something amazing...and stupid
i went to all the mall in KL...everyone that have NSW store....except pyramid....the nike store with only the orange swoosh is the one to avoid..everything is shitty there(well not all)..go to the one that have wood thingy finishes as their external wall.......
all for the sake of 50% air max1....call me cheap or whatever fuck....a rare thing to happen to air max1....50 off...totally gone all over KL...god damn......plus not really all common people know what air max 1 is....
so not much people rocking them...
plus the current spring/summer batch of air max1 is all mesh in the toe box....damn dey wont last rocking it hard....
guess need to wait this time next year...when the winter release of this year gets 50 off....hahaha....

a lot of good stuff coming also....

go google image air max 1 quilted pack black/white then u will understand.....

wont blame u people if yall dont like it or say im stupid liking a pair of ugle shoe....personal preference thingy....

ciao....

aiya friday still have exam....finance...i totally dont know a thing about..cant even do tutorial 1 question 1..... T_T

big thanks to kok fui for making everything happen...i owe u man...

and also especially wee sheng...owe u the most....

thanks u all bunch of people...u know who u are....plus my lovely helpful housemate who laugh everytime when i ask them math 2....thanks.....

shit i dont even graduate yet already busy giving thank u speech...

Exam

2009-09-02T20:55:00.003+08:00

now waiting yew woen to bath....his bathing time feels like 6 hour to me....
after that go to kok fui place....study measurement of building works....please come out drawing that are not to complex....yerrr please lah....of course it will be A3 size but please don too complex har miss hong......and please the lesser the steel bar thingy...the better....i suck ass in re bar thingy....confusing piece of shit....

will be going to kok fui's place after that....all night long....after that all night long again tomorrow night....wow...life is looking wonderful right now.....

i will be super lack of sleep for this coming 2 days.....

metal lifestyle

ayam pie..............

Les Paul

2009-08-14T12:34:00.004+08:00

Here is something more important then Michael Jackson's death....

Les Paul

R.I.P

this man invented 8 track recording, overdubbing, reverb, not to mention the solid body guitar...pop music today wouldn't exist without these things, and also rock music as we know today...and that's aside from the fact that he could shred too.

and his name is also on a guitar that is recognizable instantly doesnt matter if you are a guitar player or not...after the fender stratocaster of course....

this guitar have smaller scale compare to other normal guitar...so your fingers can fly really quickly when you play one of this....i know cz i own one before...and i am about to own another white one as above if things go smoothly....not Gibson of course...god damn...a Gibson one cost more then RM 15K brand new if it is like the colourway above...not to mention if it is vintage of more then 10 years...the price will be triple or even many many more if the guitar is old with mint condition.....

bye bye...go jamming with woen at the living room....

RIP Les Paul...The Wizard of Waukesha...

Sick

2009-07-31T22:58:00.005+08:00

thanks to.........a lot of factor and reason.....
i am sick....sick as F....feverish abit....flu..cough....good reason to be extra lazy from usual....
WITH SICKNESS COMES GREAT POWER AND RESPONSIBILITY
u can freak people our with this flu and cough thingy...now that is power..like one of my group mate...made her paranoid on top of the architect dude dat lives a few floors above her....dude died from H1N1..came back from Hong Kong with flu...then go to langkawi...come back to KL then die..SICK !!!!!

ohh yeah...went to national library just now....
IMO a solid 2/5 rating for that library...too little technologies thingy (school related) book and all of them are in Malay....and a lot of fucking religion book...notably Islamic ones...no rasisct intended(ok i lie)...i thought people go library to study real stuff......dats what i dont like about Islam...people can get too serios...yann was right..dis damn country is build with too extra many much emphasize on religion.....ok thanks...dis stops here....

another ohh yeah.....came across a blog post by this SG chick....
http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2009/07/how-many-times-do-i-have-to-say-it-i.html
iPhone hater....hahahahaha....thats life...theres bound to be hater.....
like how i think regular pop chinese song+basketball+sleeveless shirt+super long black arm pit hair+3/4 pants+bootleg shoes+a basketball= the perfect blend for full on macho super power GAY

just learned something new today...cockroach can survive to a maximum 10000 rad of radiation..dats like surviving a nuclear fallout. cant be drowned too(short term like half and hour fully submerged).....tought little bastards....

They also provide an excellent source of protein for Mexicans

Sunday Morning

2009-07-19T16:19:00.002+08:00

i copied this from yann's blog...

firSt..
wAke up eArly in thE mOrninG ..
gEt wAstEd in uR bEd fOr 10 minS .. in this case my is 20mins

whEn yOu fEel uR eYeS arE rEady tO oPen ..
rUb yOur eYeS until it'S sMooth ..
mAke sUre thiS iS dOne pRopErly fOr bEttEr fEel ..

thEn ..
tEll yOurself : " what a niCe weathEr toDay !! ahh fUn to bE alivE !! "
at thiS pOint u will fEel reAlly gOod ..
tAke a dEep brEath and stretCh ur bOdy fOr a tEndEr tExtUre ..
thEn ..
cLoSe yOur eYeS back aNd cOntiNue slEepinG ..

nOw thAt's a grEat sUnday !!!!!!!

Fuch yeah....sunday.......

Skin Deep

2009-07-10T03:30:00.002+08:00

Sometime surprises might just be lurking around the corner

Fourth of July

2009-07-02T17:06:00.003+08:00

Oh, say! can you see by the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming;
Whose broad stripes and bright stars, through the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched were so gallantly streaming?
And the rocket's red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there:
Oh, say! does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?

On the shore, dimly seen through the mists of the deep,
Where the foe's haughty host in dread silence reposes,
What is that which the breeze, o'er the towering steep,
As it fitfully blows, half conceals, half discloses?
Now it catches the gleam of the morning's first beam,
In fully glory reflected now shines in the stream:
'Tis the star-spangled banner! Oh, long may it wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!

And where is that band who so vauntingly swore
That the havoc of war and the battle's confusion
A home and a country should leave us no more?
Their blood has washed out their foul footsteps' pollution!
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight or the gloom of the grave:
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave.

Oh, thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand
Between their loved home and the war's desolation!
Blest with victory and peace, may the heav'n-rescued land
Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation!
Then conquer we must, when our cause it is just,
And this be our motto: "In God is our trust":
And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave.

What A Week

2009-06-27T05:41:00.003+08:00

what a week i just had, a really good weekdays. Cel came to KL. yeayy !!!!!!!!!!!!
Update with pics later...

I was really desperate for an external storage,due to the 60G only of my laptop...
so i bought myself a Buffalo...the best price for a 320 G at low yatt...some people might argue ( those people i used to know..good thing they are not around my area anymore )" tan u so stupid, u can get chaper price of better brand at this shop or that shop" etc etc....

MY MONEY THEREFOR I CAN BUY ANYTHING I WANT

but then again...i dont really care..suddenly think about it because of this computer hardware below....not that ____ is reading also....

and i got myself a big weird looking rat...my old rat died...i didnt pet any cat in my room.....

it is a laser rat....so it is extremely smooth..not to the extend of RAZR mouse...but its all good...works on any surface...plus it is so massive my hand feels super comfortable whenever i lay my big hands upon it....and no..that rat didnt cost more then 50 bucks...

and this bart simpson figure really ignite my desire to buy action figures...i always have this desire ( not a strong one ) to buy high quality action figure and have them displayed in my room...i am still sane enough to remind myself i dont need an 300$$ plastic sitting in a corner in my room and it is not something that i can use.....

Note : the height of this Bart figure is until my knee length...quite huge....

i hope they dont have a Homer figure that is build as good as Bart below..if not there goes my money......

And a big shocker of news when i wake up from cel cel's sms....Wacko Jacko is dead....
damn....i used to listen a lot of his song..bought his Remastered Greates Hits album back when i am Form 3 from a store at Pacific...i still go to that same store to get my DVD's..good thing also...his family still can enjoy from his death...imagine all the cash they will make from his official merchandise and reissue of his old albums...dead famous people will continue to make money...

man i like Michael Jackson a lot....RIP......

and another celebrity died also that day....Jacko's death hit more on the headline.....

RIP Farrah Fawcett......google her if u dont know who she is....tips : Charlie's Angels....

lookout for a famous picture of her in an orange swimsuit....died from cancer......

cant wait for more news on Jacko's death...cardiac arrest eh.....i wonder what really happen...........

Updates

2009-06-15T22:02:00.005+08:00

i had been missing for quite some time....the truth is i am busy ( o rly ? ) plus i had just moved into a new place...same location but 15th floor...nice view....a fantastic view of d city....

while i was setting up my guitar and sambil blog....

some stuff happen to my new guitar..what makes it bad is it got something to do with the guitar body...not crack...but the hole where the screw that lock the tremolo spring...it got luse lose ( damn it i cant spell what word)...so piss and dissapointed now.....hope it can be fix......please let it be fix....if it can be fix i will resell it away asap....if fitting a bigger screw will fix it i wont sell u....fingers cross...

i follow all the right steps and i was getting it done dy......suddenly feel so unconfident on setting up a guitar with a floating tremolo....but i will try it again if fitting a bigger screw fix the problem...

i dont mind my guitar to have paint chips or dings whatsoever but not that.....

haih...damn it....shit.....broken heart....

cb...help !!!!!!!!! :..(

21st of May

2009-05-20T23:19:00.003+08:00

21st of May

my honey's birthday...21st birthday.....hahaha...like the way she said it....21 on 21...

the maturity of your mind....honestly it kinda scares me....it will make me look at myself...then i will go "wtf im doing" sometimes....maybe this is a balance between us in some way....

i am so glad and happy to have u...a person that i can count and rely on...a person that i can trust............

hope u will enjoy a new mile...a new stage of your life...be a more mature and stable girl...and yes be a good girl....hehehe....u have big dreams...i know u will try your best for them....i wish you all the best with my support.....of course....be with you when you are in tough times...i will be with you no matter what.....

thanks for everything

Happy Birthday Cel Cel

I HEART YOU ~~

Lucky

2009-05-05T03:46:00.002+08:00

My luck has change a month ago into something that is very good
best smile in the world
cutest person/personality ever
................
................

the list goes on....

then it hit me
i realize this is everything that i ever wanted
and i didnt miss out on it

one month
it will just get better and better....she knows...i knows...nothing else matters

thank you for everything

ohh yeah.....i call her MY HONEY...

hi honey :)

Back

2009-04-20T02:06:00.004+08:00

its been a while since i am here..
posting up stuff.....

yes...LAZY......

sweet....here we go again....
its that time of that semester....yeah that time.....
where people will get stress up and stuff.....
so many things to do but with so many time...huh !?
yes...i still have so many time(i dont want to waste them)...thing will look lovely if i can be ahead of time...i need to be ahead...which i think i can....

EXAM SEASON

i should not be wasting time on this now.....so after this is done i will be gone....

HAPPY EXAM PEOPLE

* Big thanks to this special girl of MINE :)

Edit : hehehe...opps...dats d correct one my dear ~~

Sunday

2009-04-03T16:13:00.004+08:00

It will be sunday again really soon
it will be the 4th week in a row...of sweet,happy__________(fill in the blank) weekends...
things just get better and better
i love the feelings of how u excitedly wait something or someday to come
then when it finally comes just sip in and enjoy everything

i will just leave the thought of Wednesday hidden somewhere else first

too good to be truth but it is real

:)

15th March 2008

2009-03-23T20:49:00.010+08:00

Ate Jap food at tao and aji noren..... OMEGA 3 overdose.....
pure jap food that taste amazing.....
both of the shop is at Png....

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edamame
this can only be eat "sexily"...

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damn good stuff....

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scallop..
this is even better...

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papaya wrap with salmon...
this is good too......

^^^^^^^^^^^^
" hmmm...which 1 to use for rehearsal later....."

^^^^^^^^^^
nasi putih+unagi
some more good stuff.....

^^^^^^^^^^
cup that feels like as if they are going to fight each other...chopstick on the left is their weapon....

Birthday

2009-03-12T16:44:00.003+08:00

Today is Eddy's 15th birthday...my little brothers birthday...4th in the line of dudes mom and dad put out....
and guess what...i dont even know today is his birthday if not for my mom telling me just now at lunch time.....i keh keh act know......

happy birthday man....for your birthday....i am going to give u my red strat...once i get it back from my room 450km away....
u learn and pick up really quicky everything i teach u......he can alternate between 3 chords already......he can play intro of Come As You Are....what better is he can play the intro, bridge and pre chorus part of Sandman....in less then a month....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

i am so lazy to update other stuff.....

wait sometime later....

Away Again

2009-03-04T11:53:00.003+08:00

all my bad are packs i am ready to go....
i am not yet standing outside any door...
cz its not 1.30 yet....

yeah i rip the front part from the leaving on a jet plane song...

4 days...i hope there is a mcd nearby...or best...straight can online from the place i live at when i am there...

2 guys 4 days going to classes....it is going to be....fun....huh ????
i am looking forward to it...i really dont understand stuff about pumps when my dad talks to me about it....the design the head the flow the electrical thingy......i suck major bad when it comes to electrical thingy....i need to force myself to like it....i need it for the next 50 years apart from the QS stuff which is also super important.....

maybe this year will be different....

and the beautiful side of somewhere-the wallflower is a great song...thanks mul.....
no wonder it is a good song...the singer/songwrite for the wallflower Jakob Dylan....is the son of the legendary Bob Dylan.....must have inherited lot of gene from his dad....

well gotta go...bai.....

infected....and getting addicted....can turn people into the brink of insanity(not the kih siao type)...in a nice way....i am that person.....dont really know when it started.......

risky bussiness....but life is full of risk anyway....i take risk all the time....

ello.... :)

The Kids Want Metal

2009-03-02T09:54:00.004+08:00

"wei azuat, drawing tu bile kena siap?"cakap edwin dengan mata yang penuh dengan pertanyaan, yalah tersembunyi dalam jiwanya, die nk mendalami aktiviti blogging dulu. azuat membuat reply dengan suara yg memang confirm " oohh hak tu hah, petang siap pun tak pe, tak rush lagi, tapi kena siap before esok la""ok, best"jawab edwin.Dan beginilah gara-gara edwin yg nk blogging dulu awal pada masa office hour ini. Tapi takpe, edwin memang sokong gile dengan saying dia sendiri " blogging sambil drawing/typing document(atau acara lain yg seangkatan dengannya)".

LAME
so obviously from the little passage above..im doing this post from my office...and yes i have some work to do...i think this post is going to take me a few hour to complete...i had to do my work also.....which is not much of a work pun since i can blog....

was at singapoh last week....i cop a pair of Zapato...should i make some quick $$ selling them or keep them ??see first....

not much pic of the streets....
quite torturing too...whenever i see some nice stuff..i can only tell it to my head "man, thats cool"...cant share it with the stranger next to me...they may think i am crazy....

woen lets get down there someday...a lot of band's shirt at HMV..official merchandise..nearly buy the shirt with the master of puppets cover...and also to get some guitar gear....i am sure u would want to do that....u little gear freak......

Edit
dad left the hotel room around 8.45am...his seminar starts at 9am..conducted by a Bulgarian called Nikolai something that works at washington DC..the venue was just at the ball room of the hotel...so he didnt have to walk far(kesian there is some problem with his knee)....i will wake up around 10am and make myself a nice cup of hot coffee....its free so i beh tahan....then i will just put it on the table beside my bed and continue to lie down watch TV...vision four do have some nice documentary of animal violence typically african lions devouring some wildebeast,zebra,giraffe,gazelle...then around 11.30am...hunger starts to haunt me...bath and all move out around 12 something......time to go walk around look see at orchard rd...

my lunch there on the 1st day is Subway....yes subway at The Heeren...was walking when this subway dude give me a " buy 6 inch sadwich and free soft drink" coupon....straight went to subway without thinking much....plus i like subway too.....forgot which set but i know i choose parmesan oregamowatever bread with lettuce+tomato+some bacon+smoked meat+some other meat+ BBQ sauce....and a coke.....sadly yes...it taste like the other subway shop at pavilion....but at least it was healthy and tasteless.....

stomach full..its time to walk..hang out at Heeren 1st....HMV is there so have to check that place out 1st...and then it rained....damn...i stick my sorry arse on the bench in front of swatch for one hour i think...cz i have finish checking out the whole place....then i decided not to wait anymore...plus the rain is subsiding...then to Cinnilesiure not far from there.....after that....skip Takashimaya ( just like the 2nd floor of pavilion but only bigger and more european brands..stuff like Gucci...Louis.....blah )....then realize Top Shop is still not open yet..dissapointed...the guys are moving....

then off to Scotts Road...Far East plaza is there....think of Times Square 6th floor but 10 times better...all the best sneaker shop....and so called *streetwear* shop is all there....Surrender..Black Chamber...Warped...Leftfoot....to name a few...wait...actually its just those shop.....chill around.....no sales plus some of the era's dont have my size....haih...chill at tangs which was just like pavilion...then back to cinnileisure to check out the leftfoot there...get myself a pair of zapato...then it is 5 pm...walk back to my hotel...chill at room a while..dad arrive...let him rest a while...then go out dinner....we eat at a shop called BBQ Chicken (there is also one at gurney...overlooking Chili)......then his turn to check out Orchard Rd pula...we didnt walk far cz ppl kept calling him...i kesian his knee also(good son)..but we end up at Borders which is quite far...chill there till 9.30 then we called it a day.....

the next day also the same stuff....woke up with a sudden crave for pasta so i head to pastamania at cinnileisure.....i am their 2nd customer of the day.....order a damn creamy&rich chicken carbonara set....it was good at the 1st few bite...after that it will turn into a struggle to finish the whole thing...but i still did...dont want to waste......hahaha....again walk aimlessly around...then walk back to hotel reach ngam ngam at 4...immediately taxi to air port....

Flight delay at Changi ruin the whole return plan....haih..SG->LCCT flight was delayed more then 30 min.....so the money for our next LCCT->Png flight went into waste for nothing....have to rush to KLIA and buy the next earliest flight back to Png asap...MAS is a blessing and a curse in disguise...RM 662 for 2 person....fuhhhhh.....

at last reach Png also...drive back safely to my home and yeeahhh.....reach.....then it is saturday......

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after too much of aimless walking around...i sat there looking at the nice cars on the traffic...have a nice chat with my head....

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lobby of the hotel i stayed in.....for the damn price 200sgd per night they are charging.....quality is ok lah...toilet and bed is nice..a lof of channel in the tv....from spanish french italian to indon to sure have vision four.....

and this week...i am going to Glenmarie....some Grundfos(brand of pump which my dad is the 2nd line distributor to)training thingy......it will be like going to class....four days from 5-8..office hour time....no hotel this time....paiseh lee farn...it is glenmarie(shah alam) not subang...i was given the wrong info.....i will drive there with another dude but the car is not my...is his....and dude jz told me i have to be the GPS for this trip...lovely...i had only been to glenmarie once which is like 3 years ago....

ok....thats all.......

thanks :)

Damage Inc

2009-02-24T19:07:00.002+08:00

my metal friends....

straight jump to 1.52 for the heaviest riff i had ever heard....

which lead to a super power solo by Kirk....

Video

2009-02-23T19:35:00.004+08:00

3 great musician....

B.B King-Blue Boys Tune ( bukan wayang blues )

Gang Bang

Paco de Lucia - Entre dos aguas ( Flamenco classical guitar )

Slash- The Godfather Theme ( probably the coolest guy ever on a guitar, that is the les paul goldtop i am talking about )

Enjoy....

and no...i am not gay....

North

2009-02-22T10:20:00.008+08:00

the last crappy video post was my 100th post......damn.....

i am posting this from the office now....i had written this couple of days ago...but due to lazyness of bluetooth-ing pic to my laptop...and then tapao them here with my pendrive....i got lazy....but here goes......

as most of you dudes may know i am back at alor star....it is beautiful and quiet...there is no place to go...furthest that i had been to was tesco...only one place i can think of that i can go alone here...

pasar malam at the stadium to check out bundle sneakers.....

sometimes i resort to talking to myself when i am driving....

but i am glab i am back here....

lets look into what i do here......basically i am just a trainee....cz i dont have my ticket with me yet....i have my own room but boss said go sit outside..ok boss....

office hour 9-5.30...mostly is AUTOCAD work...draw schematic drawing of switchboard(they are easier for me because only involve single line drawing)...and dont have to follow scale like 1:300 stuff like dat..schematic drawing is not to scale....

if more grand....as a site supervisor....when to site with the engineer.....check out situation of the people who transform idea into reality....check out if the material is edequate and being placed properly...secure nicely....making sure work can be done within the Completion Date...if not can kena pay Liquidated Damages.......etc...

BIG UPS to you guys...working at a site is hard....plus u neeed to trasform drawing to real thing...

if more more grand...free bussiness trip to oversea with the boss....like this time of last year i was at AS too..went to Taipei..bt for 3 days only...damn i love that place...

this time of the year...singapore....this wednesday till friday....

ok text is boring....pics coming.......

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random shots of the office....damn where is everyone....

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some stupid top secret drawing....which i cannot reveal....

when to langkawi few days ago...some project at machinchang ( was it ?) the cable car place...build a water system that will supply water from bottom to the top of the hill....

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excating trench for the power supply cables of the pumps to go through....the timber on the ground is where the location of the pump house will be..i think is 7m x 5m...elephant(serve as ride for the people visiting there )will go through that place every a few hour...so they delay works..plus they still need to install 800 from ground to the top of the hill..lot of work...that formal guy is the indian engineer i go with....so far i had only been to that site...
boss jz told me big chance i will have to go back there again...and i will have to go alone....

and that pretty much sums up all....i think i want to get my hands dirty..have a taste of the real hard work..dig stuff laying bricks welding stuff with those guys....

and tommorow..i will off to SG with the boss....he is attending a Deselination(wat was it again) seminar...deselination is filteration of Sea Water -> 100% pure and safe drinking water.......i can sense a pair of new shoe....but see how 1st.....

one more thing...this dude not far from my table...he is a nice guy and all teach me stuff....but please man....why u have to peek whats on my monitor everytime u walk by....

lunch time is coming really soon....sweet....

25 Cherita Random Pasal Aku

2009-02-20T18:22:00.005+08:00

cecilia tagged me....so here goes....i want to do this as fast as i could....explain later....

1. i am totally blank now
2. although i am very into heavy metal stuff...but most of the time i dont listen to them.
3. decide to quit being wasted last week...
4. i love girl who is tall..long hair..........
5. i love barbeque/grilled food..a lot...
6. dont like crabstick so i dont barbeque them....
7. i cant tahan heavy alcohol drink..thanks mom..
8. i like to watch movie...down at the cinema of course....but woen dont like cinema....so we rarely go watch something....only once in a long while....
9. i love shoe
10. learn how to play drum myself when i was 11 using a few milo tin...1st touch a guitar when i was 7 that belong to my aunt...kena sut by my grandma after that cz she scared i might trash it...
11. there is something wrong with blogger now...if i press spacebar it will delete the word that i had type out...
12. i am into jazz and classical stuff...they are the father of everything....no rap crap and punk rock please....
13. i love massages...thanks mom.....
14. my favourite gutarist ( in no order ) is Slash..Kirk Hammet..Jimmy Hendrix ( somesay they sembah his patung )James Hetfield and some other jazz/blues guitar guy.....
15. my favourite guitar is Les Paul....in particular the Les Paul Goldtop like Slash's and the Les Paul Custom(black/gold)in which i already own....
16. i used to love a girl so much that we had broke up...she had a boy friend now...which is good...wish u happy always.... cb
17. _______....which is not part of my plan....
18. damn
19. currently i am working as a Sales Executive/Site Supervisor who dont know a thing at a company...still learning ma....
20. i like Kurt Cobain style of writing...very deeply thoughtful..often with a tinge of sadness..or hate...or rebellious..or just pure ecstasy...RIP Kurt...
21. i love to read...everything...but not so much on school stuff....so i hate it a lot when people say " people who like to read always have good result at school..u where got ?? " wtf it got to do with school and result man....
22. its hard for me to blog nowadays...it is not ok for me if my parents know i have a blog...plus my comp is at the living room....
23. dont like Kimgary...i rather eat mamak or unless really no choice liao......
24. i miss the old days where we always motor around to places and play football....
25. sen or woen if u need condom its at the 1st drawer....still got 2 inside so dont fight....unless ah yann want...so yall will have to fight....or go buy la...so cheap.....

25 random things...haha....

i am at alor star now....will blog about what i do here sometime later......

bye.....

V-Day

2009-02-13T18:41:00.003+08:00

so its valentines day tommorow....

nothing much to say....this is the 1st time in many years i am not going out and celebrate...wow....

was looking at picture when i was still with her....damn....its been so long.......so long......

i remember everything......its been great....thank u.....i am really sorry if i had ever treat u like shit....like last year's V-day.....sorry......

whats gone will never come back....the fact that i know my will never.....which is a good thing....if not my life will not move on....

i had never failed to feel pain

bye......

Happy Velantines Day people....

happy valentines day ed(not me)...she's a keeper... .

Oh Me

2009-02-10T05:01:00.003+08:00

If I had to lose a mile
If I had to touch feelings
I would lose my soul
The way I do

I don't have to think
I only have to do it
The results are always perfect
But that's old news

Would you like to hear my voice
Sprinkled with emotion
Invented at your birth?

I can't see the end of me
My whole expanse I cannot see
Formulate infinity
Stored deep inside me

Free

2009-02-09T13:56:00.002+08:00

at last...my exam is over back at 6th of Feb....nothing much to say about it....
hahaha...sen wrote the wrong index number on his answer script...he wrote the old skool one....

anyway...since i had finish my exam...i will get a 3 month holiday.....it was a holiday i thought i am very looking forward to...but now that i am here....i am starting to have fear....3 month is a long time....i need to get a job or something....really soon....and i wont be getting any monthly package from my bosses again....until college reopen.....

in the mean time...i am going to enjoy and have fun getting wasted not doing a thing for a few days....wait...i got one thing to do....i can only do it with my brain....

its called thinking....

what i am going to do...

CNY Recap

2009-02-03T15:25:00.006+08:00

felt like writing something...
and no i didnt forget that i have a blog...haha...jk....

what i look forward about CNY is being able to be with my family..reunion..i am born in a family oriented family...everyone is close with each other...relatives is super close with each other also..( my mon's side )....so being together with them always make me happy....

and for the first time in 20 year....my family didnt take picture on the morning of CNY.....its like no one remember...haha....everyone wake up late so my mom rush us all around(a good example " qian quickly go bath and get dressed up...u r so slow like a girl")....god i love my mum.....

anyway i am not going to elaborate in details what i do for CNY...it will become a book....its not like it is eventful....i can take great length in elaborating stuff when i am writing....

i will just let the picture do the talking.....

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at sen's house gathering...around 20 people turn up.......

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gamblers at the back....it was really boring on the 1st one hour as some people are busy using money to make money/or lose money......that guy under the calendar even bring chips in hardcase...wtf....but anyway for the sake of entertainment in CNY...why not......

gathering with those dudes was great....it felt like secondary school again.....what we do for the past 3 years in secondary school was have fun...getting wasted....see who can get the lowest mark in exam...dont have to worry about failing exam...illegal bike race.....drive like mat-rempit on the road.......lame stupid ass low class style of talking......went to the internet cafe to play counter strike although we have Math Tam SPM on the next day......football every friday at school for 4 years in a row.....watching porno at tzi lih's house( he is the king of porn back then).......went to kimia/math tam tuition that we already know we wont learn a thing but still go to have fun....didnt pay fees for peter lim's english tuition for one whole year(dats me)..............there is so many things.....

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this are cow la......hahaha......and a kambing on the left......

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the night before i went back to KL the next day......at cs_wan place.....everything taste good.....the prawn(OMG so fresh)...the black babi meat...the expensive no-name fish.....and yes i grill everything......i didnt touch stuff in the bowl......

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thank u sen.....this at pavilion when we arrive at KL....the white balance was set on cloudy....so red orange-ish.....

I dont know what i want to say about the following event and few pictures below...its hard to put it in words(woooo).....all i can say is wow......

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one of my favourite....

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mulvis/mao/mul/jappy mushroom mul/cat fish/emo mul/pro with glue gun mul/....the last i saw her was 3 years ago.....
cecilia....never know her at all back then....only know her name....
edwin....i see him everyday....i am living in his shell......parasiting off him....

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go ahead and slap this face...but bewarn...it will ruin your monitor.....

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like how cecilia said it....one of the best shot of the year......
is that an advertisement ? perfectly edited...

ok...i am going to blog about relationship someday......

Going Home

2009-01-22T21:30:00.002+08:00

Finally....i had my last exam for the month of January today.....its mathematics 2.....fuck that shit.....see u again after 3 month.....

woen straight pick me up go 1U to meet thomad there at 3 xxpm T___T.....due to the unbearable boringness.....we went to sing at Neway.....vocal training......

and i will be going tommorow at 10 am....i am excited that i get to do nothing for a week with my family...plus it had been 3 month since i last saw my house...back then i will go back once every month....but its old news ...the beds here feels just the same as my bed in my home.....one thing for sure is i am going to waste like 10 hours a day in front of the idiot box ( tv lah)..AFC discovery NGC animal planet star world star movie hbo cinemax channel v mtv E espn starsport supersport CNN...damn i forgot a few of the channels name...thats how i roll when there is nothing to do all day with ample time to kill......

for cny....i only bought 2 WHITE t shirts and thats all.....i had cop too much stuff all along the year........

sweet bus ride at 10 am with woen and yann.....tonight i am going to get seriously wasted........dont want to miss my bus so we will wake up all night........plus the bus only can be boarded at jalan duta.....ma huan gila babi.......

all right i am going home.....good food is waiting for me....food here suck(well not all lah)......i need to get my dosage of laksa.....

cant wait to go to the market with my mom and aunt when i got back....woohoo....i love going to pasar with them.....

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE....

hope anyone who read this will have a great CNY......

bye bye......

What If

2009-01-18T04:02:00.003+08:00

what if....that is a question that keep running through my mind these days......
there is so many what if for everything.......
what if i order roti kosong
what if i eat excrement
what if the cat kena run over by a bicycle
what if the boy riding a bike will run over a lorry until the driver got killed....
what if i could change some F'ed up really small mistakes that really matters.......
what if i pay more attention to small details that matters........
what if i had a big cojones that can render me braver.......
what if.......
what if.......
what if.......
what if.......
what if.......
what if.......
what if.......

tuudia....so many what if....hahaha....thats life man........

just got back from jamming at a stupid studio at genting klang....the amp has high wattage but the sound doesnt produce the ompphh like a tube amp......
and since yann(he have to work full day the next day) and sen(at siam) was missing....so there was only me woen and thomad.....i played all the drum part.......
the Tama Iron Cobra pedal at that studio was full on zero resistance.....i will only need to use little strength the pedal will hit the bass drum effortlessly.....so double pedaling was not a problem......
i realize i had master the secret of double paddle at last......woohoo.......
and the high hat of that drum sound nearly like Lars high hat.......syok gile lah......
the crash and symbal also sounded super nice......

the cat at that studio is also nice....with furs like the colour of garfield...high quality long fur...the cat was sketchy abit...purring like a machine....rubbing her body all over the place...i think she is ON......mating season kot......

i always felt really good after a jamming session......now all i need is another gig/performance.....
i feel like a God when i play in front of people with my band...although only once...the ecstacy and rush is amazing......even better i guess if the crowd know what u r playing...know every word of the song.......hopefully the next one we will play our own song......

ok thats it.....my time is running out.......few more exam and i am a free man until May.....oohh yeah......

Black Box

2009-01-16T16:40:00.005+08:00

went out with the guys in the picture below (except thomad he is schooling at UM).....was planning to buy a shirt for CNY but got nothing....showroom and zone5 is too far from pavilion....lazy to walk all the way to time square....no FOS at pavilion...so thats it.....come on man....told yall dy we should have went to MV......plus the shop that sell ESP guitars is there...and sole what too.....plus FOS there is bigger.....

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best way to eat chicken is have them burned....with secret spicy herbs.....traded my drumstick with sen's chicken wing...cause i want chicken wing......all of us 4 person share a bottomless coke....4 cheap guys.....

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this is what happen when a room is too small for 3 guys.......

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2 best friend....small paul and this expensive vinyl Ron English bear beast......thanks sen for contributing this pair of friends for this pic.....

After coming back from pavilion....we decide to head to our office......thomad rush all the way here from UM....fuhhlamak....so far......some pictures were take few days before hence the discripencies of shirt colour.....

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lazy ass me....i decide to lie down when we still have to wait 30 minutes for the other band to come out from the room.....the carpet floor smell like crap.....urgh......

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WOOHOOO.....searchin'.....seek and destroy......

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argh...come on edwin...play super fast........
what the hell with sen....why laugh when u must concentrate on the tempo......
thomad a.k.a Cliff our new bassist headbanging at the back.....

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our lead/vocalist.....

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multi talented edwin on bass/guitar/drum( as said by sen )......

sweet....2 more exam and i am going home on the 23rd at 10am.....but 2 more subject are waiting for me after CNY.....haih.......

Unintended

2009-01-16T03:18:00.002+08:00

You could be my unintended choice
To live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love

You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended choice
To live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

Before you...

"MUSE"

Lost Cause

2009-01-11T06:51:00.003+08:00

if i have to lose my mind
what would it be yeah
i lost my soul
i am so kind

the wall stares me
senses lost within me
flies hover around me
flesh rot within me

i kiss myself
vaguely sees myself
a walking shell
i lost myself

my shadow laugh at me
who is he
does he make any sense
i am over the fence

i dont cry myself
dont quote me on that
i love myself
its pathetic so sad

it always comes to this
nothing to breath
nothing to bitch
i think i am lost

where do i go now ?

Dark Hour

2009-01-10T14:21:00.007+08:00

Its that time of the semester again....where i dont need to go to class anymore.....
because the college is close.....for the coming Exam.....
exam never like me and i dont like him other.....but it is part of the process a student must go through.....
14/1 20/1 22/1 4/2 6/2 .....shit.......
nuff said.....
lets look at the pictures......

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after a long hour of doing site survey tutorial(thank you) spanning more then half of the clock(from north to south).....i decide to kill woen.....u noisy room mate....if nt im doing some work i will have beat your noise level easily.....

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acting cute by lam nua on the bed.....he is desperate....contact zeroonetwo-4627281 for more information....

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there is nothing much to do early in the morning...so we decide to stare at our toy and head bang to them.....

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this were schedule to arrive yesterday.....bt i was asleep peacefully in my room....i didnt even notice the pos laju guy outside knocking...plus there is only me in the whole house......

thank u woen for driving me all the way to kl sentral there to pick this up at the pos laju center....

i was so excited that i tore everything apart in the car as soon as i got it......

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this (zoom gfx3)multi effect pedal is so complicated to use at 1st....after a good 1 hour of reading manual and feedling with it.....at last....woohoo.....i can get any sound i want through that thing....

the whole thing was wrap(very nicely)in an old skool brown orange nike box.....the seller said " box ori lunyai kucing guna jadi port"......hahahahaha....kucing.....

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i had just woke up when i take this pic a few hours ago......

McD WHERE IS MY JACK PURCELL

i left 3 pair of my shoe outside for the sake of convenience....nvm....lucky me u dont know what is VANS(black/red pair)...and my skated p-rod(red insole) is too thrash and looks bulky...dont think u want to action on that pair...i am going to keep everything in my room this time.....

sigh....exam is literally at my doorstep........

good luck........

Wasted Days

2009-01-07T16:07:00.007+08:00

yann and sen decide to eat expensive 2 days ago......
so we head out to the curve......
our neck is really tired from the constant head banging to songs in the car.....
tony roma is the chosen venue.....
no i didnt eat because i want to save my cash for something else(which i shall blog about later)...
plus i had eat my dinner an hour earlier before we head out....

next stop is the mystery bar at the curve....there is band playing there from 8.45pm onwards....all of their song were so familiar to us (at least to me and ah yann)....
their super long haired kirk hammet perm style guitarist can shred like a beast.....
he posses the ultimate shredding technic....
sorry man....this is the 2nd time we watch u play from the outside.....1st time was Stairway to Heaven....2nd time was the Little Wings....
next time i will be in there cheering on u......i dont think much people in the bar aprreciate what u play or your shredding skill.....

anyway here are the pic....there a few more but this few will reli sum up the night....

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from left( yann,thomad,random guy, woen)
where are u sen ??one of our favourite activity is sit around on a stair...waste the night away....

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the tomato burger that sen devour his hungry stomach upon.....

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what yann ate.....yellow ginger rice with burn chicken and a rock stuff with whats look like to be clay sand and some grass.....

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hunger be not proud....though some have called thee...mighty and dreadfull...for thou art not so....
3 fucking loser above that order share a free refill coke....

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this is still not one of the gayest moment of my life......
wtf is wrong with my hair........

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haih..........

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a girl that im so lucky to came across with....i recognise her face from the mary france bodyline ad in the newspaper.......this is the 1st and last time that i will see u so up close...see u again in the next life.....

and last....yesterday i busted my ankle during an unforturnate skateborading accident....stupid ledge that i try to gap........my stupid leg that overflipped the board......shit........i try to avoid the nose but instead....i bust my ankle.......everything was on video but i am still considering if i want to post it here.....

i hope i will be able to walk properly(long distance) in a few days time.....
it is getting better if compare to last night...i cant even stand properly...it hurt so much that i laugh out.......

Chamber Of Sin

2009-01-03T17:15:00.004+08:00

at last...the day that i must share room with woen has come.....woen is the mother of doing nothing......

2 new house mate will come tonight at around 8....i think they are girls....i am really not sure....

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our office

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our rig....

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other options if we get bored playing the same guitar....but i never get bored playing my Les Paul....

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some nice shoe to stare at if boredom hits after a long hour of guitaring.......

what absent now is the double decker bed frame we got from a buyer at cheras...nothing much to ask more for RM40 ....

im going to die in this room.....this room has everything to do with entertainment......

my mind need to be very extra strong this time.......

i think my sleeping time already rosak.....

another problem....i am strong although i didnt really get enough sleep.....

A New Year

2009-01-02T03:48:00.003+08:00

happy new year...
a new year...
a new resolution(ohh ye ke ?)....
my new year resolution is i want to get a haircut.....i look like an emo serial killer right now...but still far from Johny Greenwood(radiohead guitarist)..i have a secret dream to do my hair like Dave Mustaine but our beloved society and most importantly girls dont like that....but its useless anyway...they are just dreams....go and be a normal person...and hopefully score.........
ok seriously i want to get a hair cut to trim my long fringe.....they are blocking my view...all i see now is a bunch of hair and a blur image of stuff in front......and they are not comfortable at all....im gona trim it back to how my hair looked like 1.4627281 months ago.....but when go cut hah ????aiya.....

2008 goes away in a nick of time....damn its been that fast.....i still remember where i am and what i do in the new years eve of 2007...it felt like yesterday.....
it felt the same to me this new year....except i feel older...as if my time is running out....gosh i am so old....yet still stuck in my stupid damn college....but all of us should study now anyway.....i cant imagine myself to stop and go work at some dodgy place like selling hand phone or shit.......
the new year means new resolution for some people...for me its nothing much....my life have been great...whats lacking seriously now is the studying get good grades department......
i know what my problem is but i never do anything much to change it.........
wait....that is my problem.....
being one year behind...it is dragging me down to the bottomless pit......
as of today exam is only 12 days away.....12 fucking days.....they used to be still A LOT OF DAY away for me.....ohh wait...maybe thats why i fucked the same shit up 1 year ago......
it is useless to write or say something that u will not put in into action....

ohh wait......i think i want to stop.......

WAKE UP EDWIN......GO AND MAKE A DIFFERENCE MAN.......

u knw u can bt u nvr try hard enough...

Last

2008-12-31T02:35:00.008+08:00

this is going to be my last post of the year...i have been M.I.A for the past week....

the following picture will explain my absent....plus my line was kena occupied....but it is not nice to blame people.....

it will suck..at least for me during the new years eve...i will be stucked in my room...woen and sen is back in hometown....yann is busy......fucking sweet.......i should have go back too when i have the chance.....

1st time in my 3 years of studying abroad...i didnt go back even once....lucky my parents came down to KL twice.......one is for a relative wedding thingy the other one was the big family trip......

i will let the pic do most of the talking.....plus some narrative of my....

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(from left chicken,random guy, kong li)

spend my christmas with this dudes at genting...my childhood friend....dat grey shirt guy is the guy who occupied my line during his all week stay in my room....he sleep super late like me but wake up earlier then me....then create noise...hahaha...there is still some other people in that trip above but they are gone to other place....seperated...maybe us and them cant click or shit.....i dont care man....but they are still a bunch of nice people.....

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people mountain people sea.....fucking random.....they start to scream for nothing at about 11.45pm.....

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some other random shit......

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me n kong li decide to go to all of the super that have the nicest bookstore and study......fucking lucky me having a friend who have the same hobby as me....read all the free shit at the bookstore...

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all the parking lot pic so that we wont have to do the job of remembering the location of the car.....thanks my dear camera phone.... missing were the parking lot of The Curve.....i didnt take any cause its too hard to forget where is the car at.....

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same shit as above

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had a beer and burnt jagung with kong li in my room watching james bond do his thing in the casino royale movie .....(fuhh no coma)

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taken at kinokuniya.....i swear to everything this is the best bookstore in malaysia....

this is where kong li spend 450 on 4 books about photography.....cibai li you are so rich.....

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found this at kino.....BAPE's 2008 look book........30% but it retails at 240.......typical bape price......the same book but pink cover on the left.....

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yesterday at MV manhattan fish market......forget the name of this platter...all i know is they are damn fucking good......ngam ngam for big stomach of 3 guys(me,yann,li)....i felt sorry for the couple who order the same shit as us....they were having a hard time to finish everything in the plate......good news about this restaurant was ice water is free(already tax in la)......

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fried mushroom which was also damn good....the worst part is our platter above also have this same shit.........

thats all....

by the way...

Happy Birthday Mul......it is so hard to forget when is your birthday.......haha....hope i dont ruin your birthday with that no suprises song...

merry

2008-12-23T18:26:00.003+08:00

just got back from class....i felt like crap today...a total fucking crap...until the point of not feeling like to talk much with bunch of my nice friends...reality checked into me...i am stressing/fucking depressed baby...there is a pile of shit that i cant fucking do at all.....i felt like a pile of sampah......

it is like a cycle u know....went through the same plate of shit every semester......plus my current status now as an ED student is not helping....ED student who fucked up bad will have to hit the road...no more chance again...

ohh god i am so godfuckingly fucked up right now....bt anyway i still have some time.....do it now or get burned.......

ohh wait i got a better word for myself......

STOP WHINING START DOING THINGS IMMEDIATELY !!!!

by the way

Merry Christmas people.......

Nothing Else Matter

2008-12-23T01:37:00.002+08:00

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words
I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

Band Rules

2008-12-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

there will be a new band rule staring as of now......

band ( spring return or fallout shelter ) rules and regulations

1. everyone will have to suggest a song cover for jamming , the other 4 will compromise .

2. cannot ask or force any member to choose song .

3. cannot ask other member to set rules and regulations

4. 5 of us ( edwin , sen , stan , thomad and i ) are not allowed to die before 80 , if not his properties will be fairly devide to those still alive bandmates.

5. must voice out how other's playing and ask/help/advice/ him to improve until he can shred.

6. everyone must do their job when sessioning . there are only 2 guitar amps in studio but we have 3 guitarist... so see who wan sing he sing la.

7. cannot fart in the lift

8. must share their porn

9. must eat something before jamming , like a stick of chocolate bar or what .

10. anyone in the band turn gay then he is ready to leave band

11. anything wan to add/edit just copy this and post it anywhere as long as i don see it ( kidding ) just fucking tell everyone since now "heng" democracy .

the songs this time going to jam are:
1. don look back in anger --- oasis
2. illegal ---shakira
3. orion --- metallica
4. ( ) --- ( ) <---see thomad wan what song he is not online now
5. like the angle --- rise against

As quoted by woen......

Milk

2008-12-20T21:12:00.006+08:00

so me and woen went up stone village(kampung batu skatepark)around taman metropolitan at jalan ipoh to skate...it is a big park like they have in png in youth park.....

1 hour into it and it fucking drizzle....oh well....at least we land some of the trick that we do all the time there.....shit i think its ard nearly 1 month since d last we skated.....it never used to be like this........

and i un-DS my milk blazer on friday....friday was my favourite day of the week so i un-DS this bad boys....i had keep them brand new for about 1 year and 2 months......check out the pics...

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what i wore...the x-large ape shirt....all of x-large's shirt feature that ape.....their mascot....much like a bathing ape....but bape is stuff for rich people who can spend 300-400 for a damn t-shirt..so lets move on..... i am paiseh so i black out my face....

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sick detail of this milk blazer.......that jeff dude really exist....he owns one of biggest skateboard brand in china....before that he works in a milk factory before he quit that stupid job to create*The Gift Skateboard Co.*.......

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thanks to internet....we can have access to this picture where only people who works inside nike can look at........note the bottom milk carton....this pair was released in that giant milk carton but it is only available exclusively in Jeff''s skateshop at china....regular ones are a normal nike sb(skateboarding)box like my....

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this is the sample pair.....it was still in an un-confirmed status sample shoe....check out the difference of this pair with my then u will get the idea.....

V

2008-12-18T22:14:00.003+08:00

Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant and vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition! The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it's my very good honour to meet you and you may call me V.

-V-

vi veri veviversum vivus vici

Doing It...Not Doing It.....

2008-12-16T21:20:00.003+08:00

woke up today in the morning not feeling well....sore throat and i could sense some pak lai juak(hokkien) within me.....a two hour lecture feels like 92183918hour.......got back down a can of 100 plus and slept from 3 to 7 pm....how the hell i am going to feel sleepy tonight......

ahh fuck.....thursday is going to be a shitty day........
some site survey practical test....where we have to set up that camera thingy..the autolevel..where u always c bangla or indian or malay or anytype of people working in this field(no racism intended) holding them on road consturction...anytype of construction actually......
whats even better is we need to setup the whole damn thing in 2minutes.....who fuck will set up that thing that fast...but the tutor also understand....he will let u pass if u took longer then 2min....but with lower number of marks.......2minute is set as minimum so that lazy people like wont take my sweet time to setup the autolevel.......

that is the morning part...on the evening part....i have to do a presentation on Occupational Safety and Health Act....or OSHA.....a rule to protect everyone in the construction site.....safety and health wise......

4 person per group....each of us need to find a real consturction accident as case study and figure whats the cause and how to prevent them........and we need to put on formal attire....those stuff make me feels hot....wearing it to school doesnt feel nice....whats nice is wearing it to the air port waiting to catch an 1st class air plane to the swiss alps.......or monaco places like dat....

i manage to get hook ups for past year answer but the lecture change the question abit this time....past year it is only 1 case study...now we need 4......cibai.......

more worst is tommorow should be my day off...i dont have class on wednesday...but because of this i need to go to the school library to find information......after that still need to retype our findings and later at night fucking learn all the stuff.......last miniute work strike again.....

things looking so lovely right now.......

Cat

2008-12-15T15:51:00.006+08:00

i really dont know when i start to like cats....
maybe it started out a long time ago when i was still a little boy.....

i really like lion and tiger back then...especially lion......

the 1st ever lion based cartoon i ever watch was *The Lion King*....

and if there is a national geographic show about them....i will be glued to the tv.....

cat is so cute....the way they use their paw to touch something(espcially kitten)...cute....

i like dog too....but i prefer more to cat......

judging by the number of cat who got killed trying to cross the road.....cat is a stupid animal....u cant ask a stray cat to come to u like how u ask a dog...unless u have some type of food to lure it......u need to have a special connection with them 1st........

but cats r cuddly......they like to be stroke and cuddle.....rub its forehead and chin...feed them food....and the cat will know u.....they will recognise u......if the cat always lick or touch your hand with its mouth(like a kiss)....u had succesfully create a fond connection between u and the cat...it will take a long time to reach this stage unless u start out with a young cat......

cat is a clean freak type of animal.....they will clean themself more then 5 times a day by licking their fur....

there is a cat in the jamming room i always go to....it is called wei wei....i dunno...thats how the malay owner called her......she is a very friendly cat....she can bond with a stranger easily.....she must come from a good breed judging from her wide head and high quality thick fur....only male cats hav wide head....

i am gonna let the pic do more talking...

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woen lying next to it.....guy holding the stick is chi sen....its been a while since i last saw him hit the drums...hahahaha....

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i was eating at a mamak next to the jamming room....she was out on the streets roaming....i called on her and she really came to me....next thing i knew....she jumped up to my lap and just chilled there.....i put her down cz she totally ruin my shirt....i was planning to sleep with this shirt...it rained really heavy not long ago..her dirty paw was all over it.......

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i gesture to her again to come up to my lap....she really understood my hand sign and quickly jumped up again...clever cat.....her reward was a few piece of chicken meat from the mee goreng i ordered......

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stray cat at the back alley of my alor star house....all of the leftover or rosak food in my family were all given to this cat.....a she too.....she is a grandma already....her daughter also have kittens but i dont know where are they.....but i know one fell into the drain and drowned.....

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my attempt on raising a cat in my KL condo.....me n woen picked this young cat up around the condo....but woen have hidden allergic towars fur...frankly i scared i might not take care of him properly....so the best is put him back into the wild...its already 4 month since the last i saw this cat...maybe he is dead already......thanks ah gu for contributing this public bed........

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unrelated to cat.......this is wat me and woen do yesterday......

Ikea Barbote Prototype Guitar Stand......well actually we made this from an ikea shoe rack...take apart one of it...saw and screw the whole thing back...we did the whole thing in his room....safe from sawing which is done in the balconly........now what we need is some air cond's sponge like black colour hose to prevent the guitars from getting all scratched up.....and to provide grip too.....

bye.....

Shit Hole

2008-12-13T01:02:00.003+08:00

jackson....this is the last time i am gona say this....please dont go off the line.....
i aint playing loud anymore.....you are a very thoughtful friend too....u r very worry abour ur roomate's sleeping ambient......i dont think my amp's sound level is going to effect in anyway your friend sleeping....even woen is suprise how low the noise level is.....bt nvm...since u leave the toilet door open at ur room......dat mean i am still loud then......

i had turn blind eyes on everything u did....u eat my stuff....u use my stuff....u even lock the door of our connected toilet.....

please give woen face....he is very helpful and are doing his best in refixing the broken bridge.....

for me......i am ready for whatever shit you are going to throw at me...i will still think its my fault...i dont want stuff to get bad.....situation now is already very ugly.....i want to fix all this mess....i will try to accomodate what u want.......

i really dont know what i had did to u at all......

whats even better....the girls that are planning to move here are not coming in jan...they switch to uncomfirm status.....

its cool....lets see how all things will turn to later......

anyway.....i went to the cinema today.......it was sudden as well......me yann and woen are planning to go have dinner at some where around....but he kept saying the *Body Of Lies* movie is great.....so off we go to pavilion......

what i wore to the cinema is damn cool.....i wear the sport shorts that i went to sleep with everynight.....the trip was too sudden that i didnt change.......

it was a great movie.....counter terrorism was the story line.....everyone cant be trusted.....intelligence office of government all of them are lying to each other to acheive their own self interest........most of the scene were shot at middle east.....the gun fight scene although not much was so real....

there is also a scene where they are going to kill Leonardo de Caprio(u have to watch the movie to know if he really die or stuff).....it was totally the same setting as the real beheading video....there was the black flag with a white circle in the center and arabic word around it........my heart when nuts when i saw that scene......i had saw the real beheading video before.....i was scared to shitless that time when they are dragging Leo around.........

it was a great movie...i recommend it.....woen was emo on the way back cz he hadnt eat any stuff at all the whole day....cant blame him......

and please dont watch the real terrorist beheading video if u ever came across to one...a normal human should not watch how a person will be sent to his death...i still can imagine how the guy scream like a beast when he was drag down to the floor........the scream will stay with u forever.......the fear in the scream of that guy...........how his face cry when they remove the black cloth from his face to start the execution......no human will ever cry and scream that hard......he struggle really hard but there was 4 or 5 other masked man that will have him pinned to the ground......the victim was a british if i remember correctly.....he kept pleading to the terrorist in british accent(please i dont want to die)......

when the execution start...they will kicked him and pinned him down....whats even better is they dont chop down the head in 1 go......the exceutioner will use a parang.....and literally saw the guys head off.......THEY SAW IT OFF......the scream will go from loud voice to loud crakle kena choked type of voice(like when u have nua in ur throat)...then to nothing...dead...and the blood.....the amount of blood is so fucking a lot..........and the terrorist will scream Allah Huakbar(maha allah besar) during the whole beheading execution......

shit......

World Of Hurt

2008-12-10T16:50:00.005+08:00

I nearly fucking got killed today....

Woen's mini rosak again after a few month..this time its the wheel bearing...the car get to the point where it is undriveable....dat mean he cant get spare part.....

he needs a new bearing...due to that i have to call Eugene and borrow his kriss....he will be the pillion as he know which part to buy.....pick him up from the garage and off we go....

it was scary like fuck to drive in the city....cars everywhere and they were going high speed....we need to be quick too to avoid getting run down....

It is my 1st time driving a bike into the city after a few years living here.....we had to go to this shop..they are the only shop in KL that stock brand new spare parts...it is at the end part of jalan pudu....which is around the pudu jail and very near to Time Square......

Traffic was very BAD....it was lunch hour....to make matter worst...i dont have a bike license and Eugene's bike doesnt have any side mirror at all......there was also a few close shave with the traffic police...they were busy directing the traffic....1 cop manage to spot our sidemirror-less bike....but he was busy directing the traffic...he could only gave us a really threatening stare....i was scared to shitless....had to full throttle the bike away real quick........

Shit started to went bad when we are on our way back to the shop.....after coming out of the tunnel that is near to the US Embassy onto the fly over...bike start to feel weird at the rear....but i dont give a shit about it...i thought i was imagine up stuff......after on our way down from the flyover....

Things went horribly wrong....the rear of the bike totally lose control....as if the rear was struggling real bad left and right to break out from the bike...IT WAS FUCKING SWERVING ON THE REAR REAL BAD....we were on about 80kph as it was a highway.....i had to brake like a bitch on the front....i dont dare to use the rear brake at all...fearing it might make things worst.....

During that moment...i thought i was going to die....frankly i had already brace myself if we were really crashing.....i was ready for impact with the pavement anytime and into the world of hurt..i would have broke a lot of bones if i went down..and if the car behind us cant brake in time if we fall down...we would have die...it was shear luck that i manage to brake the bike into a halt...stop in time at the end of the flyover and direct in to the side of the road......

All of this because of the real tyre...

we stop and push the bike into the orion condo....pak guard told us there is a bike shop near menara celcom.....we had to push like 400m to get there.....

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Getting this beast fixed at the shop...tayar pancat...a well spent RM12 for a near death experience....

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menara celcom...the shop was just infront of this building.....

And i had not yet blog about my new house rule...
shit dude....what does " change before it changes u " mean...was it suppose to threaten us people ??this is your fucking hand writting jackson....i am going to fuck u up 1 day.....
we have been cooperating properly since day 1....
and why the hell u have to lock the door of our inter-connected toilet in my room.....i dont need to go toilet ?? seriously there is something wrong with your head....

there is only 1 dude doing cigarrete in our house....i thought he did throw his stuff properly and neatly into the bin......

and please la man....do we really need to swtich off the leaving room light all the time?????shit is so fucking dark......u soppy cunt.....try to swtich off ur comp then if u want to save on the electric bill.....lights on for 24 hour a day will only cost less then RM1.....

now i know why u hate me...maybe it is cause by the type of music i listen and play.....

well u should pipe down on your nigga music too....your shit is fucking loud some time.....

If im going to move out 1day....i wont tell u.....

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new house rule.....click for bigger image.....

Unrelated stuff...my friend got this card when he was on his way walking to the lrt...after checking out from work.....

If u people are alone in KL and are looking some type of fun that involve a lot of RISK....call this mr.kent......

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U dont need to understand japanese to read the stuff above....

Thats all......i am so glad that i am in my roon now typing this......not passing out in the hospital....

there is so many way to die....to die in a road accident is not my thing.....

off to do my laundry........

December Hate Post

2008-12-03T02:03:00.004+08:00

jackson bro...i duno what is up with on your head.....
you are quite a daring person....u know that tuna mayo in the fridge was my....
but u still have the guts to take it out and eat it.....u lil fucker....
u dont even bother to ask me if its ok to take it.....
whats even better is u still dare to put it back.....
u know how i know it was u....cz i saw u were eating gardenia bread in your room....thats when d time i realize the whole can is gone......
during that time...there was no other guy in the house...it is just me....woen plus u and your room mate.......
and i realize 3 of my underwear is gone...lesap dari dunia rialiti...tarak liao...was it u ???????

dude...i dont know what i did to u....i had never cross any line that might offend u or any shit......
but why u have to did this to me ??

nevermind....i will take it as if there is a problem with me.....i will act like nothing had happen.....
i was thinking to steal some eggs from u...but u know what...me doing that will only spread more hate between us.......i dont want anymore of this shit.....if u really hate me...i am cool man...its ok...people hate someone for reason...its just that i still dont know the answer.....
cincai la...jz eat my stuff anytime when u feel like it....u r a coffee junkie too like me....if u want any of my 3 in 1 nescafe just take it.....

when the new girls housemate u hook up come here at Jan(those girls are planning to come at dec...bt due to some other problems...it is drag to jan).......things will be all right again i am sure.......

hang ni memang insan yang sangat istimewa....aku tabik gile.....
hati ku panas ibarat gurun sahara......
tahi ayam panas digenggaman pun tak sepnas hati ku yg membakar.......
tapi nk buat ape.....
kena tahan beb.....
perangai hang ni yg pelik gila babi......
kena kontrol hati sanubari aku ni.....
sesejuk cuaca negara paling utara dan selatan di bumi ini....
aku tak kisah hang nak buat ape....
aku tak nak marah.....
sori......
wake me up when december ends....

Anyway....found this vids in one of my files just now...that is the 1st time we ever play something as a band...the 1st ever song we try to jam...this is some historical nostalgic shit...hahaha....but in the end we still fuck the song up.....
i was on the drum in this video cz our present drummer(d singer in d vids)still dunno how to play drums......and no bassist too...back then we dont even care if there is a bassist...as long as there is guitars and drum...we are good to go...excuse the singer as this is a hard song to sing....need really high pitch voice...typical Kurt Kobain's song.......
the song is Smell Like In Spirit-Nirvana....ironically this is also the song we play on our 1st ever gig.....
Enjoy...funny shit in the end....hahaha....sound quality is shitty...it is recorded with a phone....

Animal animal aNimAl...

2008-11-30T21:44:00.006+08:00

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the most celebrated activity in the world of penguins...stand still like a stone...i watch them for a good 5 minutes and this is what they did.....but they are cute.....

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penguins out of water...i heard they were plotting for an escape....hence the gathering....

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lazy polar bear 1....all he did was rest on that stone and look out at all the humans.....they are freaking fucking huge...if there is 1 that will going to kill me...i will surrender without a fight....

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lazy polar bear 1 room mate...lazy polar bear 2....rest its big body to the thick transparent(it aint glass n plastic)thingy....it was really big though...n it can float on water......if u seen once of this close up...there will be strong urge inside yourself that make u want to hug them....

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cute kitty kitty.....want some friskies ?

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Winston...

made from premium quality tobacco and 600 other ingredient....i tink he can kill a dog.....or got kill by a gun....

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aiya Hedwig....dont be shy la...look ur friend is not shy pun......(sorry for the flash light)....

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polly wants some cracker.....

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This is just Great

2008-11-29T02:04:00.005+08:00

going to school today was great....hang out with a bumch of new friend....

they are really a group of nice people.....

had tom yam for lunch with them....it was spicy...it is a bit hard to have spicy stuff here unless it is cook by malays or food from mamak...till this day...i still find it weird to eat your tom yam with yee mee in it...i still prefer bihun....or maggi.....

again....i have to say they are really a group of nice people.....the group D i was in last sem contains some serious case of unfriendly people.....

hui hoon ask me to attend some blood donation thinghy with them...hahaha....but i dont feel like donating blood during the time...so i decline....the last time i donate blood was last year....gosh...it was so long ago already...

but i kinda regret after she came back....they were some good free gifts.....cupcakes....some cakes....a bottle of yeoh's crysanthemum tea(fuck my spelling...it is getting worst lately).....and a free u mobile prepaid line.....hahaha....free stuff....

but donating blood is a good deed...it helps people that needs em.....

and site survey class today make me realize i need to do some catching up work....damn....i dont even know how the fuck to start the new tutorial's question at all....scare the shit out of me.......failing is the most ma huan stuff in the world.....

for dinner just now....we(me and the regular guys minus sen) went to have satay kajang at the back of my condo with chai ling and ypeng....duno why but the satay meat taste really nasty...the usual quality and tasty-ness was not there..the juice of d meat taste like huang jiu ji..weird...my stomach gave up some time later when i was watching "catch me if u can" with yann in my room....i only ordered 5 lucky for me....yann eat more then 10 of those but he is still doing fine....

anyway.....i will be leaving my big ass master bed room start from december....i am going to be yeoh woen's room mate...his room is so small.....but this will reduce a lot the amount of rent we have to pay....each of us will only have to pay about RM120.....

us are planning to invest in a double decker bed to save space....
thanks to some fucker in the next room....we have to move....i guess thats the reason why my room mate eric(my cousin...mom's sister)decide to move down to 7th floor.....

to make matter worst....those bastard dont want to swtich room with me(master room and medium size room)to create more problem out of 1.....reason is they cant afford the less then RM100 pay rise.......

ohhh welll....big thanks to woen for accepting me..a big size human..into his small room.....he has a weakness to cold and chilly room.....and i am used to eric's Number 5 fan speed everytime he sleep......hahaah...

well there will be 2 girls that will leave in my master room from dec....thank god there is a girls for a change.....when a house is full of dudes....everything will be dirty....no one will want to offer themself to take out the thrash.....no 1 will want to clean the toilet....i have to clean the toilet everytime with a toothbrush..scrub and caress everything tenderly...so that the toilet will feel my love.....i cant stand a dirty toilet....plus that fucker jackson in the next room never flush after he take a pee....fuck u man.....is it so hard for u to push the flush button ?

being a room mate with woen.....yall can expect some stupid funny gay and homo new videos from me that i will post here in the future.....hahahahhahah.....

Pictures

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due to the fact that i still have a lot of time before my class start...i decide to play around with my phone.....i have a slight hate for white shirt...they will look old and yellow-ish after some time...plus to make matter worst....stussy's quality is shitty....RM150 for a really thin piece of cotton is just a scam...lucky buy 1 free 1 last time i share with my bro...the picture style graphic had crack quite lot at its white border..the colour of the pic had also fade a bit..i think it is only my 6th wear in this shirt since i bought them back in Feb...and i hand wash all of my good shirt...maybe thats why i have a wardrobe full of black tshirt after all.....

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pic was taken yesterday after eric had clear out 80% of his stuff....that wooden colour table is his...i am alone in a big bright white room...feel like how the siao people who got lock up with restraining shirt and are locked in a solitary white room with all around soft soft cushion like wall...damn....why my tuala look so....arghh...disgusting from here....it is suppose to be blue...

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this was taken just now...so messy in a space of 12 hour..me woen and yann are trying to jam in my room due to the shear size of it (5 people of my size can lay on the floor and there will still be spaces) but it failed as everyone was playing their own shit.....thomad your wood colour tele is place on a book....they are nt touching the floor although they look like it.....my les paul e string patah so i use your tele.....your new laney bass amp is just next to it....

If you do watch the news and are concern....

fuck terrorism and their genius mastermind who distorted the real meaning of religion for brain washing the terrorist to do all the massacre....

Terrorist who got kill is going to a wonderful place where the people have horns in their head with pitchfork in their hand.....

RIP....all the unforturnate victim and the brave police who got kill in Mumbai....

thats all.....the room made me feel so...weird and calm right now....

shit...my post is too long....it will bored readers who dont like to read.....

Cheer-ed

2008-11-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

if anyone out there is having a bad day...be it stress in any kind of form..malang day..anger..dissapointment*ahem..sorry..* +whatsoever any form of event that can be class as having a bad day and like dog also.....

watch this.....

i dunno if its me but this is one cute puppy....i once read from somewhere watching cute dog can be cheerful to the human mind....(of course la watch cute thing)

anyway...ohh ya...the breed is welch corgi....enjoy....

Elmo

2008-11-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

ahhh....sesame street....
it is a show where i am sure we all watch a lot when we were still a lil kiddo...i know i did.....
i remember....when i was a small boy...i will sit there and wonder...wow...r dose muppet real....
if would b nice if can talk with them and play with them....

years later...i got older...i realize they are all act out my human....but i still watch'em...
thanks to this show...my english i have to say really improve a lot...*proud*

anyway...how many people have seen the sesame street behind the stage....when they are filming other takes.....well here i have a video of elmo behind the scene.....

aint Elmo cute ??

muppet is a complicated subject......

Kesimpulan

2008-11-25T18:18:00.003+08:00

got back from my tour yesterday....

tour with metallica to genting melaka and sg....

i was their guest guitarist to replace james who injured his hand during a unforturnate burger eating ceremony to wish good luck for this tour...he can sing but he cant play guitar at all....

sigh....

anyway people...i just got back from my family trip.......

it was a fun filled 4 days with good food...

well the food part it made me felt like as if i am in china....

they were so many lightly stirr fried vege in some of the meal....its not like i hate vege....i love em....

but sometime over-doing em is boring...nothing can replace the excellent taste of meat.....

my uncle dad relatives they all was trying to bring me and my bro into the casino....and yes u guess it....they didnt let me in......well the people who got it didnt go it long too.....i came from a family that didnt gamble...not even during CNY....thats why i never like any form of activity where you have to gamble.......

and i saw sook wan in genting too....with her classmate....kinda shock....didnt expect to see anyone i know at all......nice seing here there...its been a while already too....she went into the casino with an IC borrown from her other older friend..haha...damn......

melaka had gone thorugh a lot of changes since d last time i was there.....d last time i went there was like 8 years go....nothing to talk about melaka....imagine AS + 40% of penang and u get the point.....

the icing on the cake was indeed singapore....

the sg zoo is smaller then i had expected...maybe i expect too much..bt the khim siu there look good.....

saw the white tiger that kill a guy....its was fucking huge....bigger then me.....

and it kept waliking around giving stare too all the visitor....

i though i was going to die when it escaped to the pedestrain walkway(nah i was just lying)...
i saw a polar bear...penguin...manatee and wilder beast for the 1st time of my life....

polar bear is fucking huge.....they look cute too...maybe cz of their white fur.....penguin are really big too....they one i saw are the species that are in the penguin movie...

they were standing like a stone....maybe they are sleeping.....

their height were at least until d length of my knee....damn.....

the jurong bird park was quite nice too....i saw an owl that look just like harry potter's.....

its size was quite big....it will scare away cat and dog easily.....

and i realize i like owl too.....they have big eyes that were very cute.....

i didnt get to do any shopping at all there....shit.....

i stayed in a skecthy weird ass hotel there that is called fragrance hotel in ava road or belastier road or something road(just next to cheers convenience store)....it doesnt have any window at all......but it does have a lot of channel....i slept in quite late because of the idiot box i was looking at.....

stop at KL too....went to both of the towers....the science center and the palace.....

and i didnt meet with mulvis at sg....my schedule there is really tight...we only check in to the hotel at 10pm.....

and worst of all...i cant even make a call or sms with my damn phone....and i thought hotlink have auto roaming.....i remember i can call and sms with my phone there last time......so that put anyway of contacting her asking her out into a grave....shit....dissapointed....

me and my brother got lost in the SG zoo...luckily his fone can sms....if nt i think i will live there for good.....but why my phone cant do that ?? :(

sorry mulvis.....nt able to meet u there...i am looking forward to meet her there since its already 2 years i last saw her in person..i am quite dissapointed not to be able to meet her...oh well...life will suck for some more time....c u next year then....

due to the present of my dad's digi cam(a panasonic fx33 that i choose but he paid when both of us were at taipei back in april)...i didnt take much pic with my fone.....

plus the digicam is in my home town now.....i dont have a lot of choice to pick from....sigh

well here are some of the pic....only 4....

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on the way coming down from the highest resort plateau in this country

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tower ride thinghy i was on at melaka....

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view from the top...

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our bus....yeah...i was in the world championship last time(yeah right in my dream)....

well thats all.....super tired....

Off I Go

2008-11-20T13:06:00.001+08:00

bye bye...hahaha......
this is going to be a great weekend....

Another Great Week Ahead

2008-11-17T19:35:00.004+08:00

yay, another great weekend is coming up.....

there will be a family trip from 20-24 cz my aunt who lives in china is coming to visit....

singapore will be part of the stop....23-24.....all right.....

that mean i can get some more new stuff.......

a skinny jeans....a new pair of shoe if i can find LE Skate in Peninsula....gonna get myself a messenger bag too if i have some more spare cash....if.....thinking of getting a Manhanttan Portage messenger bag....but the price for those is off my chart currently....... :(

well at least they are still cheaper then Head Porter.....

see u around in singapore mul.....haha....

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there is six of these to choose from....now when are we going to get a gig again.....

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after me and woen devour away 1kg of these....my bowel movement have not been pleasant since that....its about 4 days already.....them fries are too oily.....but cooking is fun....i enjoy cooking a lot.......

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monkey....dont think i dunno u act like keh keh sleep....please shut your eyes properly when you are sleeping next time.....

i had become more obsess to stuffs with apes and monkey these day...damn.....

well on the worst side of things...the trash can in my house is starting to smell like as if some small furry animals had died in there.......shit.....

bai bai......

Curi Curi Use

2008-11-15T01:00:00.002+08:00

i gotta really admire this one dude that lives at the condo with me(housemate)..this dude is one badass sucka.....he is the kind of that guy that wont feel ashamed of the terrible horrible thing yang menghorrorkan that he do....it all started when i realize some one is drinking a good 200ml away of my 1.5 liter coke....my instant noodle can suddenly hilang one or 2 pack although i really keep track on the amount of pack that is left after i cook one away....after some careful observation....investigation and interregation(i think the spelling is wrong)of my roomate....i realize it is really this bad motherfucker who had been stealing food all the time.....he even got the guts to admit to my roomate that the curry kuah of my other housemate cook taste like shit after he curi curi devour some of them....wtf is wrong with this guy......

worst....he even finish my roomates hair wax and still act like it is no problemo....fuck that guy can even come to my room and will choose one of the belt for his own indulgence in using other peoples stuff from the whole arsenal of belt me and my roomate have....more worst....that dude also love coffee like me....maybe that explain why my coffee mate is finishing more quicker then i had expected.....

this whole damn thing went to the climax today....i woke up in the morning today...as part of my daily routine after waking up....i went out from my house to the emergency exit's stair to take a 5-8 minit chill time...devouring the stock of koko that me n woen have....on my way out....i saw a scene that i wont forget....................

my vintage snake superstar was in the other shoe rack.....what amaze me is how really dirty that pair of shoe had turn to....it was beyond recognisable(wrong?)....i still remember the last time i wear it a week ago....still clean n nice.....i was on fire instantly bt i realize confronting him wont made the shoe revert to the state when i last wear it.......i remove the dirty lace and went to college....my initial suspect was that guy because the laces was pull to its maximun tightness.....that mean the person who took the shoe is a small footed guy.....

after coming back at 5....the fire burn up again....i spent a good 45 min cleaning the shoe.....my investigating and interrogation activity confirms that that bloody dude wear my shoe out last nite....TO THE FUCKING CLUB.....who the fuck wear a good shoe to clubbing if you are nt in the vip area or unless you are so rich having 124235245 pair of shoe is nt a problem.....FUCKING DUDE EVEN LEFT VOMIT STAIN ON MY SHOE..the sole of the shoe is full of food particle...my roomate say that guy came back totally drunk beyond drunk and was vomiting.....

what burn me is why the fuck of all the shoe i have....u have to pick my favourite pair....shit.....u dont even have the right to wear my shoe.....i dont have the habit of borrowing shoes unless you are my brother......more fuck is u totally destroy that pair of shoe....if i really paid RM469 retail for that pair ima already beat u up jz nw.....u have cross the line baby...u dont mess with the favourite pair of a sneaker head....luckily my other good stuffs is stash properly.....

if u really want to impress chicks man......u have to earn it yourself....not by borrowing or using other peoples stuff....i already have a fren like this who goes with the nickname AH GU.....well honestly man....chicks dont really take note of the shoe you are wearing either with the amount of fakes regular chinese people are buying this day.....one word for u my man....if u aint got it....dont bother....maybe that amway fucking bussiness of yours has suck away all your cash....leaving you deprived of shoe....

dude...u have a serious attitude problem.....you are a serious piece of a-hole....u need to get yourself right....being angry at you wont change a thing...so i am cool.....what so fucking beautiful is 1 wont say a word to you about your problem....iam leave to other people who have a real short fuse.....those people are gonna give you a serious kick ass session....not everyone have high tolerance to asshole like you like the people in a84.......

what more caocibai is u came to my room just now to talk with my roomate...u saw the fucking pair of shoe being dried in my room AND YOU FUCKING ACT LIKE NOTHING HAS HAPPEN.....its like it is your right to use other peoples stuff without their consent.....

dude....i memang tabik hormat ngan attitude hang la......super power........cibai......

now the shoe has been clean to its most preme condition.....safe for the sole with the food particles that is in the tight spot....feels like impossible to totally remove them.....i am thinking of posting some pic later on.....too bad i forgot to take them for a comparison of before and after.......

i will act like nothing had happened...clemecy is served...having grudge will only make my life a bitch......and they wont change a thing either....the impression u leave on me is unremoveable.....

may god have mercy on your fucking soul.....mcb......

Happy Birthday

2008-11-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

if you do read my blog.......i would like to wish u.......

happy birthday........

sincerely hope you are fine and are doing well over there.....

Absent

2008-11-09T13:34:00.006+08:00

this is the longest period ever i had ever been absent from my blogging activity.....maybe because i am having a great week....chia wei is over here....that mean more spending money....we always spend a lot of money whenever he is here.....v2-ing...good food...watch football(or sawker in the state..thats what they call them : )..movies and some other activity.....in case you are wondering what v2 is....it is a CC....nope i dont play dota...i am not that a fan of military strategy game...but if it is like the style of age of empire..cerita die lain sikit...i prefer 1st person shooter like Counter or CoD.....so far....v2 has suck away just about under RM1o0 of my cash....we open RM6 for 3 hour package....

i am going let the pic do the talking....

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this the pic i took last time when i went to the beach.....part of my life is cover in sen's blog...so check out there.....if u r blind and wondering what the hell is this....this my friend...is called a fish....a dead fish......we poke it with a stick....it felt too hard to be a fish......but this is a fish.....its shape looked like a fish.....fish.....i think i want to eat some fish later.......

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this is another pair of superstar vintage snakeskin i got from trading a pair of nike air safari87 with a guy in his 30's.....seems like love for shoe will never die off no matter how old r u.....and it is quite an expensive thing to like as well.....this pair above will gonna cost RM469 at retail price if u cant wait to get them in your hands.....me....the price i got is minus RM349 due to the air safari87 that i manage to cop in super low price......

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my brother broke his board so i gave him my girl deck.....and since i still have another brand new blank deck in spare.....nothing beats the feeling of using a brand new board...and new bearing.......the board was white and blank so i decide to scribble out something.....and also to fill my boredom.....30 minites later in woen's room with a black marker pen....this is what i came out....ugly but random as fuck......i spray them with 2 layer of lacquer so the ink of the marker pen will stay there forever....but mostly they will be gone after some sliding activity.......

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as soon as we fetch chia wei at subang(he is already there for a week at his friends place)....we go straight to this shop....i realize something....my stomach cannot tahan a lot of food in one go......not like they used to be last year....when i cant chomp down pratically every food particle that is in front of me.....maybe my stomach is already used to me eating only a little portion of food everyday.....biscuit or bread for lunch and bread again for dinner.....once every few day i will treat myself a real food during dinner time...its been like that for quite some time....

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this is what we have yesterday when we are(actually its only me,chia wei and sen) watching the match between Arsenal and Man Utd at Mcd(obviously)......i hate to say this but arsenal play really good last night...their pace,rhytm and everything is one par above Man Utd.....Aresen Wenger's boys really deserve the win.......thank you chia wei for those french fries and coke....

it is raining really heavily(real heavy) now and i just got a message from chia wei that we will be going to v2 later.....damn...again........well i want to go coz its fun....5 friend sit down and have some good fun......time to have some good time again.....this monday we are going to watch quantum of solace too.....

2008-11-01T19:33:00.002+08:00

Down to the ground

2008-11-01T13:37:00.002+08:00

now from the title post....some of yall might think "haha...edwin is emo again.....emo shit"......no i am not...well i rarely get into emo mode actually...i prefer to get my head around it....find the source of the problem and see if i can solve it...most of the time i do get around them and seing things in a different way...emo is another reason to not using your brain.......i think only kids will get emo....i hate the word emo.....i want to type emotional all the time but it is too fucking long......the truth is....emo is not my personality.....although my face look emo all the time when i am not talking.....fuck all that emo shit........emo suck.....emo violence song is more suck to the ground.....those are one of the worst rock type song i ever heard....although it is very technical to play them.......all i heard is a bunch of guitar and drum noise and a lot of throat killing scream......and the song is so fucking short........mostly about 2 minutes.......

yeeaaahhhhhh....another thing to rejoice about.....i got myself a second pair of vintage snake.......gonna post a pic here later......i have had it for a week but i have not take the picture yet......coz im lazy..........good thing about it is they are so god damn cheap........air safari87 that i trade with that guy was just rm120.......actually i would like to have both pair of it but i prefer the snake more........it make me feel exotic to have exotic skin at my foot(although i condem any type of killing animals and have their skin for our own usage for the sake of fashion)....they are faux snake skin anyway......seriously if anyone out there cant figure out what faux mean you are really a fucking idiot....bear bear shoe plan has to be delay.....the other dude is still not sure yet....shit its been a lot of day already......

on another note....i realize my social skill has gone down to shit......seriuosly it is so shit that i dont even bother to talk to the whole class who is my junior.....i will only talk when i am require to.....and not fore the sake of communicationg for the purpose of getting know them......damn.....i dont talk casually to them.....i choose to stay quiet....listen to the lecturer talk and after that i leave(eugene is mia recently so i go Han Solo).....every friday i will have my lunch(2 ham sandwich)in the canteen alone.....for my 2 hour rest.....i chill at the library.....library is a nice place(i am not kidding)......kinokuniya is like a heaven for me.......ok back to the point....shit i need to do something about this not talking to the class thing.....the class i am in this time the juniors are really nice and friendly......the class im in last semester....them juniors are shitty....u can literally see the word 'get the fuck off outcast' written on their face......maybe the trauma from last semester is causing me to go to shit this semester......

Unrelated to this post and drug and alcohol....but it make a lot of sense in my real life....dedicated for the people i see nearly everyday at block A...and myself......

Addiction

A physical or psychological need for a habit-forming substance, such as a drug or alcohol. In physical addiction, the body adapts to the substance being used and gradually requires increased amounts to reproduce the effects originally produced by smaller doses

addiction is a dish best served every hour......

Testament-Into the Pit

2008-10-29T00:34:00.002+08:00

emo thoughts aside...this is a song that i listen to a lot lately.....warning...dont click if you dont like your music heavy metal...just go away...if you are curious what is trash metal all about...fucking click it...turn up the volume......this is the heaviest opening riff that i ever heard since a few of metallica's song.....and the double bass is place so nicely....sick.....

it would be an orgasm if i were ever to be in the crowd....or best...performing this song to a bunch(a few hundred thousand) of other long hair....nasty looking sweaty dude that smell like shit........

Easily Amused

2008-10-28T23:09:00.003+08:00

attend a relatives around robson heights last nite...we were quite close so the whole of us family is seated up in the front.....it was nice....its my 1st time going to a wedding dinner at kl....food is great...no kidding great...everything is great....free booze.....free flow of booze...and fucking chinese tea too....what is different in term of soft drink of wedding dinner i went to at my hometown and other that i have went to is they serve Coke and 100 plus.....coke in wedding dinner is like the shit....the good stuff.....i had grew tired of sarsi and f&n orange for a really long time......it felt nice to have my whole family around here....it will be nicer if my aunt back in home comes along too.....well in few weeks time there will be a really big trip....where everyone will be around.....we will talk on that much later....

my thoughts is truly flooded when i was at the at the wedding dinner....the sight of the 2 happy married couple really gets my mind wander....shit....what i used to have....what i used to think i had have....where we gonna walk down the aile together one day...how we talk about it....my head is fucked.....it is depressing when my thoughts seems like keep hovering back to the good times we had have together.....

well my lifes has been keep going on every since that day when the plug is pull.....i try to keep my head up high.....i come out strong....the fact that you dont want us to ever communicate again really devestated me....life goes on......cold hard fact....

what else should i be...all apologies.....

sincerely hope you will do fine in your coming 1st sem medic exam......

Random

2008-10-25T13:33:00.002+08:00

radiohead style song is hard on my brain....
this will be interesting....

the other new shit is quite nice....gotta spend some more time on it....

kick ass weekend coming soon....

another pair of snake shoe is coming on its way....

the other pair gonna try trade with a furry bear bear shoe...

sold that long time serving gold shoe to a nice malay dude wearing sod...saw transworld in his bag....

michael schumacher-the whole story is quite a good read...

2 weeks in a row...got rip off by the jamming room key holder...there goes the 8 hours of non stop jamming....which if times 2 = 16....

look like i will be going to sg next month....which means more new stuff......

the post is so fucking....not like me...i am so lazy now...i hate lrt......

The Gig

2008-10-20T01:10:00.003+08:00

Here is us performing a cover of Nirvana-About A Girl....it is a great song...one of the best coming out from kurt cobain.....

We are performing for Universiti Malaya's 10th College PTCC Night....a great event....thanks for having us there....our 1st ever gig....we perform 3 song bt for now we only upload this song...our opening song for that night....

shit i cant believe dats me playing in front of ppl...frankly i cant remember much of the stuff i did on stage if not for the video....

enjoy...leave comment at my blog please blurspongebob(if u want too..haha...)..... :)

RIP

2008-10-18T19:44:00.002+08:00

it is skocking when i heard the news from mu eugene....one of my classmate in d class that im with last semester had just died....from car accident....damn....i had just talk to him in lecture few days ago and now he is gone.....i still remember when we got barred going to the interview together....he cause some big havoc among the lecture.....

damn....

R.I.P man.....god will take care of you....i will remember you always......

Master ! Master !

2008-10-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

Time for Reality

2008-10-12T02:09:00.002+08:00

gosh...i am not used to being home doing nothing after the last evenful 3 days...the gig was amazing...the people was amazing..super friendly and helpful...everything was amazing....i never see myself performing infont of people in my own band ever....it felt incredile when the stage curtain is opened and the crowd start to scream at you...from full anxious to suddenly u felt like a god...honestly i duno how to describe the feeling....the best feeling of my life...period...i hope i get to do it again...this is something really hard to earn big bucks in this country...they are more appropriate to be label only as hobby......

after going to um and get a taste of life there....it make me realize how suck tar college is....i am not talking about the quality of education....it just felt different there...........so much different...

well monday will come soon...i am preparing my mind to get back on track...time to be serious....i have everything in my life....family...good friends....what i lack now is good grades....i need to get good grades this semester...it will make my life complete...seing all your friends in public U or other instituion who get good grades make me realize that i need to get good grades too....it is our responsible as a student....dont be such a slouch lazy slacker anymore......

i am ready for monday......its time to enjoy going to school....learn all of the stuff and get good grades....that is what matters the most now....

Our Gig

2008-10-11T11:16:00.002+08:00

got back to kl in the 7th....spend some big cash straight on a tgi meal.....and on the next day....we had straight to universiti malaya after lunch time for a full blown rehearsal.....it was an event in college 10....they are celebrating the mid-autumn festival.....it suprise me like hell when i heard that each college have their own jamming room....there is 12 college in um.......the equipment in the jamming room was not bad...better then i expected...tama swingstar....some weird ass brand vax guitar amp and bass amp(at least 50 watt)...and a prince 60 watt amp....there is like 3 other amp with the same brand but they had died....they are 2 squire strat there and a fender squire p-bass.....we staright plug eveything in and play.....we play really loud...people start to come and check us out due to the curiousity in their brain.....and chicks too...ahh shit cant work without chicks....

the jamming room was kinda whack....it had been untouch for the last 5 years...they were fucking god damn dusty.....at the end of the day...it makes me n yann's nose turn sketchy.....i am having a serious case of selsema now......our 1st rehearsal was normal....and it suck like fuck cz we have to carry the gear out for rehearsal...then carry them back in again after that....it is so tiring....

at the end of 1st day....we went back super tired...damn i never know playing a guitar all day standing up is really that fucking tired....the 2nd day pass by exactly like the 1st day....but i think we have the best rehearsal in the 2nd day....better then during the show.......

the gig was great....it is the 1st time we perform bt i think we kick serious ass....my heart was beating wildly before the curtain open...bt when d crew open the curtain...i sudddenly have this weird strength from within myself....there was a sense of estacy all over me.....what suck is some people start to leave when we perform....either they dont like our style of music or i really dont knw wat is wrong wih dem......and the mc didnt tell them during the prize giving that we r performing....so all the malay left.....wel during the prize giving ceremony for the game show they are doing...we have to setup our stuff in 10 minutes and standing up in the stage waiting to play.....

well honestly i am lazy to blog everything in detail.....it was a great 1st gig for me....although we didnt sound that well....not loud enought...we din do proper sound balancing in the last moment before the show.....people in UM are straight friendly and nice....nicest stranger i had ever met....u should how the kids in my tar college is like(fuck u people)......and girls in UM are more extra nice and proper....maybe cz they dont dress too wild as the chicks in my college....UM girls are more down to earth.....easy to talk with..cute..damn i wish i study extra hard last time......

bye....i will post video and pic once i get my hands on them.......i was a god but for only 20 minute la......

Go Home

2008-09-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

when the clock strike 6am....it will be the time we go back to our home...but i think we will only start our journey at 7.....5 dudes in sen's car with a 6 hour road trip...plus stopping at penang to waste time and money....it is going to be good....

since i will be going home for my sem break...that means i will not be blogging much....no...not because i cant get online...i am just plain simple lazy.....there is so many thing i want to do when i got back......

and about my math exam....please i dont want sv_restartround 1......

bye bye for now....its time to start packing some shirt and other shit that i want to take back with me....

Math

2008-09-19T03:47:00.002+08:00

i am going to have my math 2 resit exam later at 9am....the last subject of my exam....i am not sure how much i had learn....but it felt like i had covered everything that will make me pass....it will depend on me how much i can suck all of them down....gonna re look and redo everything after a 2 hour sleep later.....

math2 is still god damn easy if compare to engineering students....heck math2 still have differentiation stuff which we learn in SPM..but if u know me personally...u will know how i spend all of my SPM years....which is doing nothing much about matematik tambahan....back then if i fail i will like...."oohhh so i fail...ok...cincai la"...and thats it...ok that story aside....

big thanks to her for teaching me right from nothing 3 months ago....i should have pass last time if i didnt forget some stupid formula....

i will try really hard and pass this time....if shit happen...wtf...start study more early and harder then(see...that is the problem with me when i am with a math subject).....what i should set in my mind is no fail...must pass...try god damn hard and learn everything....hardwork=success....i understand that basic formula in my other studies....but when it comes to math.................

big thanks to yann and sen for teaching me all this stuff....really appreciate it....
and you also....thanks for being really patient 3 months ago(due to my lack of even the basic math knowledge)....

thanks you all...

no god will help me(i am not a religious type of person)....only i can help my self....everything is in my hands.....fuck fate and luck...i dont believe in those stuff....although some of the things we do in life really needs some luck.......wtf i am talking about.....

good morning people.....

Miss

2008-09-16T18:14:00.001+08:00

Miss :(

You

Happy Birthday

2008-09-14T13:15:00.005+08:00

birthday post...Happy Birthday Sen...thanks for the dinner at tawakal there.....

yes....1 more subject to go this friday and i am a free man for 3 weeks.....i cant wait to go back to my home....then hit penang for the weekend......

Black Sabbath

2008-09-12T23:53:00.006+08:00

now i am going to blog about black sabbath....one of the most influencial band in the world...they invent the heavy metal genre we know today.....a lot of heavy metal band we see today are influnced heavily by them....black sabbath's lyrics and riff are still heavy and top quality by today's standard...even after 30++ years....they are the 1st heavy metal band ever to sing about death, satan and some other stuff beside death....and no they dont take satan as their god...most of their lyric are about how a person should stay away from satan and shit....

black sabbath's front man....none other then ozzy osbourne....he is the 1st guy ever to do head banging during a live show......

their lead guitarist tomi iommi....still play kick ass guitar although he lose the front part of his pinky and ring finger due to some shipyard accident.....the replace the front part by putting a leather cover on his finger......

here the video below u see in one of their best song....this show is recorded live in paris at 1970....and yes all of them are high on cocaince during the show....another stuff the band is notorious for.....

Black Sabbath-Black Sabbath

What is this that stands before me?
Figure in black which points at me
Turn around quick, and start to run
Find out I'm the chosen oneOh nooo!
Big black shape with eyes of fire
Telling people their desire
Satan's sitting there, he's smiling
Watches those flames get higher and higher
Oh no, no, please God help me!
Is it the end, my friend?
Satan's coming 'round the bend
People running 'cause they're scared
The people better go and beware!
No, no, please, no!

Black Sabbath-Paranoid

Black Sabbath-Iron Man

2008-09-08T13:29:00.003+08:00

In my hour of need
Ha, no, you're not there
And though I reached out for you
Wouldnt lend a hand

Through the darkest hour
Grace did not shine on me
It feels so cold, very cold
No one cares for me

Did you ever think I get lonely
Did you ever think that I needed love
Did you ever think to stop thinking
Youre the only one that Im thinking of

Youll never know how hard I tried
To find my space and satisfy you too

Things will be better when Im dead and gone
Dont try to understand, knowing you Im probably wrong

But oh how I lived my life for you
Still you turn away
Now as I die for you
My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name
All these years I thought I was wrong
Now I know it was you
Raise you head, raise your face your eyes
Tell me who you think you are, who?

I walk, I walk alone
Into the promised land

Theres a better place for me
But its far, far away
Everlasting life for me
In a perfect world
But I gotta die first,
Please God send me on my way

Time has a way of taking time
Loneliness is not only felt by fools
Alone I call to ease the pain
Yearning to be held by you, alone so alone, Im lost
Consumed by the pain
The pain, the pain, the pain

Wont you hold me again
You just laughed, ha ha, bitch
My whole life is work built on the past
But the time has come when all things shall pass
This good thing passed away

One Down

2008-09-06T15:30:00.003+08:00

when in with a good feeling....come out with a.....ok not that bad feeling....one down 2 more to go....next coming up is on the 12th of september...i am gonna waste today doing nothing....but 1st i gotta find and compile out all the notes....then only think about revision tomorrow....oohh yyyeahhh......

*Perkataan "lights" pada pek ini tidak bererti rokok ini membawa risiko kesihatan yang kurang berbanding rokok lain*

The Goverment.

Caffeine

2008-09-02T04:03:00.003+08:00

caffeine is destroying me again...i have some big cup of teh O ice 2 hours ago at leha and now i cant sleep....damn....since when my caffeine tolerance has gone down.....maybe coke has killed it....i used to drink 3x of large coke at mcdonalds(damn free refills)...it totally ruin my night...i can only sleep at 6 am i think although i drink it like at 9 pm..i am a heavy metal sucker for any drinks with free refills....even plain old H2O....

theine is as strong as the caffeine in coke....i shall try nescafe 3 in 1 next time....as to the knowledge of my own self...i can drink a cup of nescafe and straight went to bed without the effect of caffeine bugging my god damn brain like more then 13 months ago.....but except starbucks....it is more stronger then coke....try to drink some at 11 pm....when you go to bed you will feel like you had just woke up from a 1238947 hour of sleep.....it is so seriously fucking cibai strong....alcohol also keep you awake but it suck to the max....the constant dizzyness and migrain(plus heavy vomitting if you overdose them)nearly made me jump off from the balcony of my condo....

to have a rough idea what it feels like....i will try my best in plain words to describe it here...maybe i should video it down as a documentary discovery channel style....ok....effect of caffeine is like this....u r very fucking sleepy....but when u lie down....your brain will not stop spinning....you cant stop thinking....like how many grains of rice is in a plate of rice....what is 1+1....and more stuff....u cant stop thinking about useless stuff.....but your body is fucking tired....you feel tired...u eyes is telling you to shut it...but your brain wont just go to sleep no matter how hard you try....you wake up try to do some studying but you feel sleepy....so...went back to bed and your brain will go again.....

i am gonna go try watch some porn and wank if it helps....babai....

51 Years Old

2008-08-31T16:47:00.003+08:00

i love my country....where everything can look so nice and peaceful(if you never read the news)....but inside...shit is rot to the core....it is the place where people are not treated equally...most of the time it depend on the colour of your skin and the religion you are in....it is a place where the personal interest of themself is more important then the people who has the power to choose who to run this place....the god of this land threat its people as half-witted and mentally challenged morons who will believe anything they say and do nothing about it...ok will stop here.....

for everyone who wants to read about what is actually going on in Malaysia, you can visit http://www.malaysia-today.net/ (currently being blocked by local ISPs) or http://www.malaysiakini.com/ - these two places provide honest to goodness news about our country’s current state of affairs.
If you can’t access Malaysia Today’s website, try this mirror:
http://mt.harapanmalaysia.com/2008

if i am MIA from this blog for a long period of time....it only mean one thing...they had get me....its either i am being locked up or the ISA shit had got to me.....
so please help me a good favour by coming to my place...help me blog...hahaha.....

i went to the countdown thingy yesterday with thomad....it is boring...nothing particular fun to say.....full of wasting action...some concert was also going on...you have to pay for it but you still can watch them for free..stupid idiots...why charge when i can stand beside the fences which is so near to the stage...some random young-uns even get high and got wasted from drug they bring....you and your friends are so fucking young....yall dudes dont even know i was looking....

let the picture do the talking....i will only post a few of them....i should go back to study....happy birthday to you if you are born today.....

the fireworks...it was just so so...nothing exciting...

stranger+friends wasting stranger+friends

i dont know who she is....but she is hella hot....singing voice was just ok....

RIght

2008-08-28T19:30:00.005+08:00

wtf....the font colour on my previous post is so green......ugly......

anyway....this bar thingy is settle at least...i clear one of my subject.....the other one i have to take them again next year during my final sem....find for me....as that subject is just the same stuff as my other 2 main subject on my final sem....should not be a problem...i hope.....

due to the fact that my heart is so relieve from the situation above....i bought two stuff without thinking properly....impulse spending.....well actually the shoe i bought is more on impulse.....

the other stuff i bought....a sx les paul copy guitar....all right i am happy....i want those very much...i had a stratocaster or simply call strat...but i want a les paul ever since i know what a guitar is about 10 years ago...to know more about what is a les paul electric guitar....google them........i didnt bought the gibson or epiphone ones...those are too expensive for me now....so i bought a sx copy...sx did a great job (finishing wise) on all of their copy....change the pickup and u r good to go......

the previous owner did some mods on the guitar...change the pickup to esp 150......grover tuning head..its neck is thru body...which mean it is laminated with glue...not bolt on..if i accidentaly drop this bad boys and snap its neck beyond repair...the guitar is dead...and plus some other stuff on the mods......

it sounded not bad.....what i dont like about is the string is too low near the fingerboard and the tension of the string is too high....maybe the string is a bit old already?? i am going to change them next sem.....the guitar is heavy too....

thanks ah yann for that guitar....-600....damn....pay u back asap before jan next year.....let the pic do the talking then....

before i did some changes on this sucker

ahh....thats more like it......

bb.king anyone ??
big thanks to yann for the fund.....resting it in woen's bed to test it on his multi effect pedal....

check out woen's blog heavy metal body for some tagging action....

T-A-G-G-E-D

2008-08-28T12:56:00.003+08:00

ahh...i got tagged by mulvis....this is the 1st time i got tagged by someone.....the answer for the question is kinda long....5 of em......well i can do it...i am sooo sooo free now....i am waiting for my lunch time....the other 2 guys are MIA...maybe still asleep.....only me and woen are ready.....
well anyway....here goes.....

1. What was I doing 10 years ago?

geez, 10 years ago, what a long time, my birthday had gone by, so that mean i am 10. Well honestly, i cant remember my primary school days quite well during standard 4. I got promoted to 2nd class because i got the highest mark in class during the whole year of 9 years old exam. I am Number 1,hahaha. In was a new stuff for me, i am in a class full of stranger. I remember i will have to go up and clean the board every thursday. Thursday were great back then, coz the weekend is coming. I get to know some good friends back then that i am still with right now. That guy is eu yann. I get to see him everyday now, which is kinda sick. And yeoh woen too, i met him at a math tuition near the neighbourhood i live in. He is a kid obsessed with car, when we are tuitioning, he will draw picture of car on his exercise book. Now i got to see him everyday too, which is also very sick. I was also heavily invole in volley ball, maybe thats why i am blessed with the height i have now(hahaha). It was also the time i read my 1st long novel, 20,000 league under the sea by jules verne.

2. 5 things on my to-do list today.

--study, exam is literally right up my ass and i have not done a lot of serious study yet.

--eat and drink

--nail the solo of the song a tout le monde by megadeth, i am nearly there.

--finish reading Mcteague by Frank Norris

--say no to ciggy

3. 5 snacks I enjoy.

--anything that is barbequed or heavily grilled with an unlimited supply of coke

--laksa (this is a snack to me)

--coca cola coke

--all sort of spicy(the spicier the better)potato chips

--fried mars bars i had in orchard road(the thing is so sweet its not even funny)

Just to only name a few. Theres no human in this world that will only have 5 or 10 favourite snack.

4. 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire.

--spend as much as i can

--travel as much as i can

--spend it on something that can generate more cash to me i.e invesment on property

--put it in a bank that can give me the highest interest rate

--spend and travel as much as i can with my family my loved ones and shit

5. 5 of my bad habits

--wasting time doing nothing

--spending money although i try to save as much as i can wtf

--go to the same webpage twice although i had just finish checking them up and close em

--a bit vulgar sometimes

--enjoy loitering around mall doing nothing

6. 5 places I have lived.(stayed)

-- Kangar, Perlis

-- Taman Melati KL

i dont know, those two are the places that i had stay the longest other then my own home

7. Jobs i’ve had

-- Quantity Surveyor trainee for 3 month

--my dad's regular driver at the office 2 years ago

well actually, thats the only 2 job i had done. looking forward to more next year when i am having a 3 month break. Gonna work my ass off.

8. Lessons in life i’ve learnt in life so far…

-- Appreciate everything u have before its gone.

--Study man, its the only way to go that will let u be a someone in the future.

--Work fucking extra hard on everything

--Applicate the life lesson that i had learned in my own real life

--The only way to get stuff done is to do it yourself. Dont depend on people.

quite somemore actually, but i am lazy to write it all here. hahaha......

There goes my 1st tagged. I am going to tag sEn and thomad see if they are interested to reply. thomad will.

Where It Is ?

2008-08-23T20:00:00.002+08:00

i came acrosee a random blog that talks about relationship with their other half and shit....damn i miss my a lot...its been 1 month and 1 weeks++ since she call it off.......heartbroken?yeah....but sincerely i hope her heart is not as broken as my....she is a strong and tough girl inside....she looks really fine from the picture that she post at her friendster.....

i am really sorry if i had treat u bad in any way before..i know i have...i am rather in-sensitive sometime...hope the best for you in everything u do....

appreciation is really important.....sometimes i really lack a lot in this department.....i had learn it by the hardway from the various incident im in lately.......

Appreciate everything u have before its gone........

woah

2008-08-22T01:44:00.003+08:00

woah....thats the 1st word that came into my head when i want to think of a title....

judgement day probably going to be at next week i think.....i will update here....let u people see(if theres any) how i die.....and also serve as a reminder to me not to FUCK THINGS UP....

anyhow....yesterday is the day i suppose to go back to my hometown....if i am not in this lovely shit hole i made...well at least i can study....since my exam start from 6th September.......

damn...i am so boring right now....i should go to sleep ? should i.....or i should just continue to write down stuff that is in my head now....damn...whats that in my head again ? ohh yeah...now i remember...its this.....yeah man...its only that...thats the word that was in my brain just now...wtf......i love my brain....my sick brain....i am gonna kill you again with the russian vodka that vivien bought for eu yann if he decided to drink it after the exam is over....

talk about drinking....back in july...me and the guys bought this cheap 750ml whisky for rm35 at carrefour...its tasted kinda good.....back then i want to see how much whisky i can take so i drank a lot of shots....too many i lost count of it...my face was red...stuff feels numb...its takes a long time to look from the left to right..took a long time to focus on an object and figure out what was it...whisky kinda taste like water from that point on...soon after that...we stop...4 of us drink like 600ml of the bottle..i think i drink most of em......

me and woen got kinda too happy and we decide to run down to 8th floor from the 11th...feels like i am flying when i run down all of the stairs.....when i get to my room...all i could i remember is i switch off the light.....i think i pass out on my bed......

when i woke up again its when i had to vomit....8 times in 1 and a half hour i think.....i cant sleep for a long time....until i saw sunlight.....

damn.....i dont plan to write so long pun.......or is it long ? am i purposely write up crap to make this a long post.....o rely ? no man....i am just killing time.....killing loneliness(thats from a song).....

fuck it.....i am off to my sleep....i hope i get a nice dream of me in someplace nice....like scotland....or bad dream like i am in a sewer at new york city with millions of cockroach that are trying to get me.....or wet dream?...i can dream.....Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream when i want you...

bai bai....my bed is calling me.....

Still Hell

2008-08-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

well....at least the assignment is coming to a wrap....it nearly done....in a matter of less then 10 hours if i start to do it now without a rest....big thanks to my friend who was in year 3 now for the help...the guidance they gave me...the assignment was a group one but it was a solo mission for me from the 1st day.....at least there is one group mate who is willing to help but only did some stuff.....but its still better then with no helping hands....the other two guy in my group are a waste.....i hope the lecture will accept our late hand-in......

and i still dont know when the bar-list 2 will comes out......

the last thing i want to do is involve my parents....i had give them too much of suffering every since i was a boy......i was a more to a problematic son......

i will try my best to solve everything by my own this time.....

a friend of my sent to me a statement which i will remember and set it in my brain......it is something i fail to do everytime....

learn from failure else u will fail to learn......

Mentally Destroyed

2008-08-16T17:23:00.004+08:00

i really cant take this anymore....to properly have a taste of how i feel right now....try to imagine you are being bar from 2 exams because of your own mistake....your fate is in the officer of your division.....if you get barred....you will be expelled....and the thing you can do now in go for the interview that comes out fruitless....the only last chance now is to make an appeal after the 2nd list bar list comes out...if your name is not there...u r safe...if your name is still there you have to appeal and talk to the head of division beg him not to expel you.....what makes it suffering is the 2nd bar list will only comes out at the last week of semester...which is only less then a week from the exam....and you have to wait so many days for the 2nd bar list to comes out....in simple term....what kills my mind the most is the waiting and the uncertainty of your future.....

what makes it more worst is when u think about u got expel....all your parents money and 2 years spend here comes to nothing....you are reduce to rubble......

mentally i am in a bad state right now.....and i am still stuck with this assignment issue which must be resolve before tuesday......i cant sleep well at night.....i dont have much appetite but i still force my self to eat because my body will be more ravage and weaken if i dont eat anything.....

this is the worst stuff that had ever happen to me in my life....i cant take this anymore.....i am gonna do everything that could safe me from being kick out of my course....my last resort is making the phone call home when all else fail.....

i cant take this mental torture anymore........

Edit
Still remember about the sex pistol you tube video i talk about last time ?? it suddenly appear when i refresh just know....wtf......

Christian The Lion

2008-08-16T11:02:00.001+08:00

I myself love animals..and lions are safe in my top 5 favourite animals..maybe thats why i like cats...they are from the same family..cant believe it when i watch this video....although there is some plausible question mark in the video that i will not talk about...just watch it...it is incredible that a lion will remember a human...kinda touching...

there is still a lot of video in the tube about this lion...double click the video above and watch the one that are 10 minute long with a few part....

Sex Pistols - Anarchy in the UK (Studio Version)

2008-08-16T10:28:00.003+08:00

in case you are wondering...this is a band from the 70s...i prefer my punk rock the old way.....

stressing + Sex Pistols - God Save the Queen

2008-08-16T10:28:00.001+08:00

last post of the july...i have a friend who is under a heavy dosage of stress lately....chill man....it aint high everytime in our life...the lows will come one day...you have get ready for it when it hit you...brace it....take it down....dont die man....dont kill yourself.....if u kill yourself people will only remember you for like a week (a month if you die in a horrible state )....be strong and brace the strom...in the mean time...suck on to this song god save the queen by sex pistol....one of the most important band in the punk rock genre....fuck those stupid chinese who think punk rock is pink,knee length footy socks and those kind of shit...what you see in the video is a piece of history...it is punk rock....for you dumb fucks(in the words of johny rotten the singer) who think why the hell that uk flag with the queen's eye taped look familiar from a malay(no racist issue intended)shirt or pasar malam...yes...it is from sex pistol....if u sucker knows the name sid visious....yes thats him he is that dude who is holding that guitar lookalike thing with 4 strings(it is called a bass guitar)....motherfucker died from an cocaine overdose back in the 70s....some people argue that he cant play a shit but who cares man.....if you think that band is singing about saving the queen...you are quite a dumb fuck...who the hell will want to sing a song about that....they are dissing about the british royal monarchy and shit....if you think i am a shit hole who is full of hate,anger,swear.like to use bracket(i am wrong again) and should attend a 10 hour session of caunselling countselling kaunseling caunseling(i cant spell that right in english)...then you are fucking wrong....i am just a swearing-A hole who is really boring and sleepy in an afternoon with a weather that is so perfect to skate in...what a fucking boring afternoon...not felt like studying...that is the problem...fuck it people...i am off to me nap...after another sex pistol song that is....ABOVE.....^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^

Worst Case Scenario

2008-08-15T20:14:00.002+08:00

if everything go against me....i need to have another plan.....

its time to think of something.....a plan for the worst case scenario...

this is really hard...i dont think i can take it anymore...althought in my heart....there is still a piece of me that remain very optimistic about the bar thing that happen....somehow i think i will go through smoothly...this is something i really hope....

but..i still need to figure out a plan if the worst happen....i know the 1st thing that i am gonna do when the worst happen and it will be the hardest....

Physical and Emotionally Torturing

2008-08-15T17:02:00.002+08:00

the interview was way behind schedule....by the time it was my turn....it was already 4++pm....over their punch out time at 4....there is only 2 person in it....the interview was very brief....different from the guys at the other session when they still have time and you can talk with them.....my session is they only ask u why on which date u didnt came and thats it.....i dont lie much as lies always complicates thing....i did lie once when i told them i have part time job on one date....and another date i told them i go back hometown....which is the truth...i still have the bus ticket with me but i dunno if it will work...so i didnt bring the tickets with me..at the end....they interview the last 4 guys in one go....wtf.....

if my name is still there in bar list 2...i will have to write an appeal letter....if that fails...i will be kick out from the course of studies.....

this stuff has done a great deal of me emotionally.....it is torturing....i dont know how to tell my parents....i dont want them to be again let down by me...

i am lost....i dunno what i must do anymore...its not like u can just hit the reset button..i never thought things will end up like this.....

i need help....

Part 4

2008-08-15T11:41:00.003+08:00

3 pm....it will go down later....this could change my life forever.....i am gonna blog everything about it here so it can serve as a reminder to me not to fuck things up....i had fucked up once by failing some shit but i fucked up on other things again....c'mon man....u dumb fuck......

i dunno what is my feeling right now....just emptyness i think...some tense....i just want to be able to get into year 3.....it doesnt matter bar or no bar.....but things just doesnt work like this....

we will see how it goes later....

well....anyone out there that is reading this now and its not 3pm yet...pray for me or anything....wish me luck....i am gonna need lots of luck later......

bye for now.....

Part 3

2008-08-14T17:14:00.002+08:00

If tommorow's interview really go out of my way....i am a dead man.....the stress is back.....just hope the group of people that interview me will go soft on me and give me a chance...cut me some slack i hope...i am gonna plea like a bitch...i put myself in this big pile of shit.....if stuff really fucked up....i am gonna suck it all down and face it like a man...all the concequences and stuff......my families......haha...yeah...my families.....damn..........thats the reason why i am stress....if i alone has to suffer...i am fine with it...its my life..i have to bare all the consequences from the choices(mostly bad)that i made....but now my family has to worry about it too if i crash......

i am crashing down super hard this time.........

FUCK...